"Nick was -" She started and stopped, after Clint, Nick was probably the person she trusted most - he'd been a mentor to her and someone she knew was always looking out for her, even after it had become apparent that he hadn't entirely believed that she could be trusted in return. She understood it of course, the reason for secrecy, and she hadn't blamed him in the end. Losing him a second time though? It was a wound that still ached, even after five years - and even knowing they won. She hoped that meant he was back, that he didn't blame her too much for the choice she'd made - but she would never get the chance to ask him about it. She had to trust that he knew she did what was best for everyone. "He is one of the best men I've ever known and his plan was completely insane, but it was brilliant too." There had been plenty of people who had said it would never work, it was too far-fetched. But Nick had been adamant about making it happen, and in the end he'd done it. And they were all better for it.
She didn't know what the world would be if not for the Avengers, anymore than she knew who she would be without the Avengers. It was better for everyone that it had happened, that they had been there to save the world when they'd had to - and then avenge it when they hadn't been able to. Things were better because of them, she truly believed that, and maybe it made up a little bit for what she'd done in the past too.
As for Gwen though and her youtube moves? "Yes," Natasha said immediately, "Yes I think that's something we should do." She wanted to see what Gwen had learned on her own of course, but also help her to hone it and strengthen her. If they did go back Gwen wouldn't be going home to a team the way some of the others would by the sounds of it, she'd need to be as strong as possible if that day ever did come. "It's never a bad idea to be prepared, no matter what your day to day life is like." She agreed.