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Tweak says, "You are not Superman"

Stan the Man (stanbyme) wrote in snapthread,
@ 2019-11-09 14:00:00

Entry tags:

eddie kaspbrack, stanley uris

Who: Stan and Eddie
What: Just two bros without the hot tub
Where: The Losers House
When: Today

Things in the house were just a little bit.... tense, Stan thought. Or maybe it had just been a passing thing, he hoped that had been all it was. He didn't like the idea of there being any more tension than this place had all on its own. His walk with Eddie earlier had been nice too - just the two of them for a little while, while Stan just sort of rambled a bit, about birds and the quite frankly intensely exciting prospect of finding some sort of undiscovered specimen here in this place.

He hadn't found anything like that then, and Eddie had gone off to finish his walk on his own eventually - but Stan thought maybe in time he might find something.

Today though was about the state of things, about Eddie and making sure he was okay, about getting the same sort of time with him that he'd gotten with Richie too. He'd teased that he loved Richie best but the truth was he loved them both in an intense sort of way that was hard to put into words. It left him feeling a little bit the way he had on his wedding day, saying his wedding vows, only these were his childhood friends that he thought he'd never get to see again so it all felt maybe a little bit more intense and a little bit harder to really wrap his head around.

Still he'd try. For them.

"Richie is worried that you might try and form a new FDA in this place." Stan didn't really need an excuse to launch right into a conversation, particularly when he thought he might need to draw his friend out a bit. So he was doing just that. "I think he's probably just worried about the prospect of losing out on free pizza. You know what this place really needs?" Stan continued on, "A movie theater - I haven't been in ... I can't even remember the last time I've been."

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stanbyme
2019-11-30 07:24 am UTC (link)

Stan could only grin when he managed to get Eddie to use his full name and not some variation on it that he was always so fond of using whenever he was referring to him. It was a small victory perhaps, but one that Stan was only too happy to take.

"I know what you mean." He agreed, it hadn't been fair to realize that - that those people he'd seen and read and heard about were the people he cared about most and he just didn't remember it at the time. Things could have been so different. Their lives would have been so many other things. He couldn't even begin to imagine what it might have been but he knew things would have turned out differently. All he really knew was that they all would have been a lot closer together if they'd known.

But there wasn't anything any of them could do about it now. It was just unfair and they were all going to have to live with that - or ... well whatever it was he was doing now. Second living?

He nodded when Eddie told him what it had been like for him, seeing the name of the town and the memories coming back to him. He'd heard Mike's voice and that had been it for him - all of it was back, he'd known without Mike even telling him and he knew before the call was over what he was going to do.

Eddie was too good, Stan had known that all his life but he was reminded of that now with Eddie promising him that all they had done was miss him when they head what he'd done. "None of us should have been forced into it." He said with no small amount of bitterness, that town that place it wasn't right for a bunch of kids to have to fight off that thing, anymore than it was right that any of them should have had to go back to face it a second time. But the rest of them had done it - they'd been brave and strong enough to do what Stan hadn't. "We're not doing it again," He agreed, leaning into Eddie, he'd done it once before and maybe he'd have done it again if he thought it was all that would save his friends, but he got a feeling that sort of thing wouldn't be necessary in a place like this. "I'm not going anywhere. Not now that I've found you." He promised, he wasn't going to leave them. He couldn't.

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ekaspbrak
2019-12-03 11:55 pm UTC (link)

Stan was right. None of them should've been forced into it and, maybe, if Derry had been a better place, if the adults had cared more, if the Denbroughs had been better parents or just fucking there for Bill they wouldn't have been. Bill probably blamed himself for their deaths the way he'd blamed himself for Georgie and that hurt and it sucked because he could never tell the other man just how stupid he was for thinking that. How offended he was that he could think of their sacrifices as anything but a choice they had both made for the people they loved the most. "You're right, but... I think I would've done that again too." He said after a moment's worth of thought.

There was a lot he would've changed about that summer. He wouldn't have wanted to go back in and he sure as shit wouldn't try to get Stan to come along. They were all allowed to make their own choices on that one without judgement. If the situation called for it though he would join them all over again. Broken arm, near death experience, psycho mom and all. "I wouldn't ask you to do it though and I would try screaming some sense into Bill's parents first. Fuck them."

They didn't have to worry about being flung back in time and having to do the whole thing over again. This place didn't work that way. When they ended up kids here they got to run around in the relative safety of Starklandia. It was much better than trying to argue their way out of stomping through grey water and fighting off the nightmare clowns that would, eventually, kill them.

He wrapped his arms a little tighter around Stan as the other leaned against him, just wanting to cling to him. To hold him like he didn't quite believe the other wouldn't disappear on him. "You better not." He murmured. "I love you so much but I'll kick your ass if even think about leaving me again." He doubted he and Richie could ever go back to the way things had been. To a world where they had never got the chance to meet and talk to and just cling to their friend. "I won't go anywhere either. Someone has to take care of the two of you."

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