Walking Contradiction (trucker_madden) wrote in slashoholics, @ 2005-02-07 21:26:00 |
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Current music: | Helena - My Chemical Romance |
Because everyone on LJ loved it and I am an attention whore.
Title: This Is Where You Lay [Standalone]
Author: Me, Peachy
Pairing: Twins
Summary: I Can't really give you much without giving it away so just the lyrics that sparked it:
This is where you stand. This is where you pray.
This is where you sit. This is where you lay. ; "Bleed By Yourself" ; Eighteen Visions
Disclaimer: Not real. Never will be.
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This is where you stand;
Your eyes fly open. Damn nightmares…
You feel around on the other side of the bed for your twin. The mattress is cold. You know he isn’t home but you still need to prove to yourself he isn’t coming home in order to fall asleep. You move from underneath the warmth of the covers and pull up your sweatpants. You pull your hoodie over your head. You tie your chucks and head out the door into the winter.
This is where you pray;
The snow is falling gently around you. You love to walk in the cold. You love that it makes you completely numb. You don’t like to feel anything anymore.
You start on your way to where you know where you’ll find your twin. You pass the church on your way. You hated going when you were little. You still do. But not him, he’d go every chance he could. But that was when he was little.
He never goes anymore.
This is where you sit;
You keep walking and pass the old baseball field. It doesn't have much use in the winter and looks as dead as you. You push open the gates hoping to just make through it without the memories coming back.
Just use it as a shortcut. Not a stimulant for old memories. A tear stained face is no fun in the snow.
But that's not going to happen. You pass the dugout, the batting cages, the bull pen.
You sin there. No matter how many times it was done, no matter how many times you thought he loved it, he always said it was a sin and he’d run to church to beg for forgiveness.
“Where are you going?�
“You know damn well where!�
This is normally where you just would have just shut up and let him run off to repent but you were just sick of it.
“Oh come on Joel! Why do you continue to do it!�
“Because it is a sin!�
“Oh I forgot that it is a sin to love!�
“It is when the one you love is your twin!� He says before turning and running.
“I’m not done Joel!� You bark chasing after him but he’s much faster and made it to church well before you.
You stumble into the church. He is sitting in the first pew. You sigh and begin to walk toward him.
“We all live in sin Joely. Not until your dead and in heaven are you free of sin. You can’t escape it,�
“You’re right,� He says slowly standing up, “You’re totally right,�
Blink and he has a single shot pistol pointed at you.
You’re frozen. It’s hard enough to stare down a loaded gun but when your own twin is holding you at gunpoint it’s a different story.
“Promise me you’ll never kill yourself,�
Uh… he’s the one about to kill you. Or you think anyways, why is he making you promise?
“Dammit Benji! Promise me!� He yells his hands shaking.
“I-I promise,� You stutter.
Gunshot. Pain. Heart stops. Everything fades to black.
You finally reach the cemetery. It’s where he’s been the whole time.