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It's okay to be scared. The world is a fucked up place.
Of course it matters. How you feel about your own life matters. And anyway, I'm not asking what you think about what you already did, or even what you're going to do going forward. I'm just asking how you feel, I guess.
Since talking about feelings isn't a thing I do, least not sober, obviously this conversation has to stay between us anyway. There's no reason for you not to be honest. If you can't talk to me about it, who can you talk to? Hyacinth is in the same boat as you with Callum Avery. I'm... a neutral party.