Who: Jared and Ty When: Monday, Oct 2, late evening Where: Jared’s place Warnings: NSFW, sexytimes Status: Complete {Part 2}
Ty happily tugged Jared along toward his bedroom -- which was starting to feel a little like his too, which was pretty awesome. He got them to the edge of the bed and then turned to face Jared again, slipping arms around him to pull him in close for a moment. Ty turned his face up for more kissing, running his hands down the curve of Jared’s back. He could already picture himself pressed up against that broad expanse of muscle, slow-thrusting his cock into Jared and listening to him experience a level of pleasure he’d probably never reached before ... it was hot. He was going to enjoy this. Ty brought his hands around to find the hem of Jared’s shirt to start peeling it up.
Jared only broke the kiss to get the shirt over his head and then the same for Ty's shirt because they both needed to not be wearing anything right now. It felt pretty urgent to get all the clothes out of the way and as soon as both shirts were discarded he went for Ty's pants, unbuckling his belt as he kissed him again. He kind of regretted never experimenting with this stuff by himself, it would make this all a lot less nerve wracking but he still wasn't some blushing virgin who needed to be held by the hand through it, hell no.
The rush to get naked made Ty grin a bit, out of sheer giddiness, and he worked on getting Jared’s pants off too. For a second he wasn’t sure why they wore clothes around each other in private at all, but then he felt more blood rush into his dick as it sprang free and supposed that was answer enough. They would get nothing else done together if they lived as nudists. Getting rid of pants and socks required more kiss-breaking, which was unfortunate, but at least they dealt with it quickly before Ty pulled Jared in close again. That fully skin-to-skin embrace always felt so damn good. Ty claimed his mouth again for a moment, running hands over him.
There was something about the way Ty touched him that always felt damn special to Jared, a kind of hunger to it that was a little different from what he was used to. Maybe it was just the whole guy thing, he'd only ever been with women before, but he liked to think there was something else to it. It made him feel sexy, desirable in a way that made him want to give Ty everything he had. He took his time now that they were naked, kissing him hungrily and smoothing his large hands over Ty's back and ass.
A lot of Ty’s sexual encounters in the past decade had been rushed and impersonal, without a lot of touching that wasn’t purposeful groping. It felt incredible to have another human being to touch as much as he wanted, one he was ridiculously attracted to, and who liked to touch him back. It was such a simple thing that meant so much, and Ty always got the sense that Jared felt the same, whether they said it out loud or not. He returned the kiss with enthusiasm, humming his appreciation here and there as his own hands explored. He squeezed Jared’s ass as he pulled back for a breath. “Lie down for me,” he murmured.
Jared watched him for a moment, warmth and some amusement in his eyes and playing on his lips. "How do you want me?" he asked and while it did sound inviting and sexy it was in part complete cluelessness. Ty was used to getting fucked but this was completely new territory for Jared so maybe there was some position better suited for it than another.
Ty’s first impulse was to say ‘however you’re the most comfortable,’ but he was aware that Jared probably had no idea what that would be. He thought for a second, glancing between his big boyfriend and the mattress. “On your back,” Ty decided, giving Jared a playful little nudge and a smile. The more kissing and foreplay the better, and while face-down-ass-up gave amazing access, it made some dudes feel weird and too vulnerable. Ty needed him comfy and relaxed above all else. Plus, selfishly, Ty kind of wanted to watch his face.
Jared hummed and kissed him again, lingering there for a moment before flinging himself onto his bed somewhat dramatically. "Com'ere," he rumbled, patting the mattress next to him as he sprawled out, one hand lazily stroking his cock. "I know you've got stuff to show me." He grinned a little and while he was a little nervous that didn't mean he wasn't going to enjoy this.
Ty climbed up onto the bed, but he didn’t go where he was bidden exactly. He grabbed the lube to bring it within easy reach, first of all, then settled himself between Jared’s long legs, nudging his thighs further apart with his knees. Ty leaned over him, bracing himself with one hand while he stroked his other one over Jared’s chest, giving him a little smile back. “If it ever gets bad-uncomfy, just say so, okay?” he murmured. It probably went without saying, but Ty wanted to say it anyway. He dipped in to kiss Jared again, warm and deep and lingering.
Jared hummed again in agreement and enjoyed the kiss, stroking Ty's side with one hand. He watched him with a warm gaze when they parted again and then quirked a brow. "May I remind you we've done this bit before," he murmured a little teasingly and that was probably why he wasn't as nervous as he might otherwise have been. They hadn't taken it far but Ty's fingers had felt damn good that one other time they'd done this.
“Oh that was just the beginning,” Ty hummed with obvious relish. He reminded himself that Jared might not be ready for his whole cock tonight, and he couldn’t be disappointed about that if it went down that way. As long as he didn’t end up hating the feeling, they could try again sometime. Ty really wanted this to be good for him though. He shifted his position a bit to rub the underside of his cock against Jared’s hand where he was holding his own. He tilted his head to kiss against Jared’s neck, nuzzling and giving little licks as he made his way down to his shoulder, his free fingers finding one nipple to toy with.
Jared didn't let the opportunity go wasted and wrapped his hand around Ty's cock as well, stroking them together slowly. He had the stray thought that Ty would have done pretty good at straight sex since he loved foreplay but he kept it to himself for now, focusing on touching and feeling Ty instead. "I figured," he murmured since yeah, he knew that one time had only been a taste of what was to come. A cock was a great deal bigger than fingers - in most cases at least and definitely in Ty's case - so he didn't really need to be told. At least he knew he enjoyed the beginning, that was a good start.
He had to skip it so often, Ty had a special appreciation for foreplay, it was true. Especially now, since he had a stupidly hot partner to play with and enjoy. He gave a soft groan into Jared’s neck at the feel of his hand and cock together, and Ty rocked his hips forward a tiny bit. This wasn’t about him though, not yet anyway, so he kept kissing his way south, eventually pulling himself out of Jared’s grip. Ty settled back on his knees, pressing his lips against the smooth skin over Jared’s hip before he moved his mouth to the side to envelop the tip of his cock. His hands stroked against Jared’s flanks and outer thighs before sliding inward to lightly tease at more sensitive areas for a moment.
Being able to take the time for this and not feel dead tired was somewhat of a novelty after the last week and Jared was appreciative of the way he could relax into this, watching Ty with half-lidded eyes as he took his cock in his mouth. He always seemed to know how to touch him which played a big role in his decision to actually try this out and tonight was no exception. It almost tickled but not quite and he gave another content hum as he reached down to stroke Ty's head.
Ty might have been gunshy about using the L word on Jared himself, but there was no doubt in his mind that he was in love with Jared’s dick. It felt thick and hot and perfect between his lips, and he took a few minutes just to enjoy sucking on it. He kept everything slow and languid for now, just wanted to lull Jared into a chill state of arousal. While he sucked, Ty got some lube pooled in his right hand. He caressed Jared’s balls for a moment with one hand before moving those slick fingers lower to slip one between his cheeks, just to put some light pressure against him.
Jared was slipping into that state of happy and boneless feeling that came with slow blowjobs and as much as Ty loved his cock he loved Ty's lips on it equally. He was more than ready for that extra touch, in fact he'd been waiting for it and if he hadn't been relaxed and content with what was happening he might even have poked Ty about stalling. But there it was and he made sure to stay relaxed, his breathing a little deeper and louder with his growing arousal.
It didn’t make Jared jump or anything, so Ty took that as a good sign. He had the brief amused thought that maybe they would start arguing over who got to bottom, if this all went well. Ty lifted his eyes to Jared’s face for a moment as he ran his tongue up the shaft of his cock. He looked heavy-lidded and slack-jawed, and that was perfect. Ty tilted his hand to start slipping his middle finger into Jared’s ass, gently pushing his way past the resistance. He let Jared relax into that before he started working it slowly to loosen him up. It was already a tight squeeze, and Ty’s cock gave a little twitch as he started thinking about how goddamn good that was going to feel.
Jared let out a quiet moan, closing his eyes for a moment as he took in the sensation. It wasn't too overwhelming yet but if it would be anything like last time then it would be. "Feeling like a pillow queen up here," he murmured as he opened his eyes again and peeked down at Ty. That wasn't a complaint at all, he felt ridiculously pampered and who didn't love that? It just amused him a little and part of it might be nerves. "You're good at that," he added a little more seriously, biting his lip and drawing a deep breath through his nose.
Ty chuckled around Jared as he drew his mouth up to the tip again, pulling his lips off to grin and look up again. “Which part?” he murmured, tapping Jared’s cock against his chin as he grinned. Ty gave it another slow sensual lick as he pushed his finger in deeper. He didn’t mind pampering his man in the slightest, especially if it led to getting to fuck him. There really was nothing else like it.
"All of it," Jared drawled, letting his eyes close again as Ty's fingers sparked off some pretty interesting feelings in him. He had every intention of going all the way tonight and he could only imagine what it felt like to have Ty's cock actually doing this instead of his hand, somewhat hard to imagine when just a finger felt this intense but he knew how bodies worked and they'd get there.
That drew a snicker out of Ty, pleased warmth joining the heat already in his belly. He knew he knew what he was doing, but the reassurance was always nice. He went back to slowly lavishing attention on Jared’s cock, taking his time and just enjoying the process. His own dick was still rock hard and feeling needy, but Ty could wait. Once Jared seemed ready for it, Ty nudged a second finger in with the first, listening for any bad signs. Those first stretches could suck, and he’d only used one finger the last time.
Jared tensed a little, not because it hurt but it was a little uncomfortable at first and he could easily imagine how it might hurt if there wasn't enough lube involved. Bodies were pretty amazing though and that apparently included his own as he got used to it pretty quickly, managing to relax back into it. He would admit that Ty's mouth had a lot to do with it because those skilled lips and tongue on his cock could have distracted him from almost any discomfort.
Distraction and patience were the keys, there was no doubt about that. Doing one helped Ty with the other, too, since sucking Jared’s cock had rapidly become one of his favorite pastimes. So it was pretty easy to bask in his own enjoyment while he got Jared’s ass ready for more, though he still paid plenty of attention to how his boyfriend was sounding and how tense his body was. Ty slowly worked up to sliding his fingers in and out of Jared in a lazy rhythm, pleased that he was relaxing enough for it and a little eager to see how he took the sensation of real friction.
Ty was a lot more patient than Jared was feeling but he tried to not push himself into taking too much too fast and Ty's patience helped infinitely with that. The discomfort had faded for now and he was enjoying what Ty was doing though it felt a little alien and weird in a way since he wasn't at all used to that sensation. At some point he let out a little laugh and scrubbed his hand over his face with a quiet, "Oh my God," but his smile faded quickly enough and he moaned again, dropping his hand to the mattress.
He’d always hated the idea that sex had to be Serious Business, and that laugh-groan out of Jared was sexy to Ty. He knew the feeling, he really did. He pulled off of Jared’s cock to grin, and leaned back a bit to look at what he was doing. Ty wrapped his free hand around Jared’s cock to keep up the stroking. He licked his lips, glancing between his boyfriend’s face and his ass, feeling a bit of his own impatience. It was just controllable for Jared’s sake. “You’re gonna feel so good,” he murmured, finger-fucking him a bit faster and deeper as his body loosened up. Ty dipped his head to suck on the tip of his cock again.
Ty's words seemed to go straight to Jared's cock. "Already do," he said breathlessly even if he knew what Ty meant by it. He knew damn well it felt good to fuck someone so that wasn't really a question but yeah, he hoped he would like it too. So far he did, in a weird mixed-feelings kind of way. There were a lot of nerve endings there and stimulating them seemed to be doing good job of blowing his mind. His toes curled from pleasure and he hooked one leg around Ty, pushing down against him with another grunt.
Ty didn’t correct his meaning, amused all over again as he flicked his tongue against Jared’s cock head. He liked that leg around him, a sign that Jared was getting even more needy as they went along. Ty thought they were almost there, and he kept toying with Jared as he pushed his fingers apart for a bit more stretching, alternating between that and gently thrusting them. His own cock was still rock hard and leaky between his thighs, eager to get buried in something hot and tight. After another few minutes of preparation, Ty looked up at Jared’s face again, licking his lips. “You feel ready, baby?” he murmured.
Hesitating was normal and Jared did just that, letting out a little nervous hiss of a laugh as he raised his head to peek at Ty, specifically Ty's cock. "Jesus," he whispered because he wasn't really sure but fuck it, right? He wanted this and if Ty could take it - and his ex girlfriends who were a lot smaller than him, damn it - he had no reason to be worried. "Yeah," he finally said and if Ty was half as good with his cock as he was with his fingers then it would definitely be good. "Just go real slow." He gave Ty a reassuring little grin to show him he was being just a little hyperbolic with his audible fretting, then pulled on him with his foot. "Show me what you got."
Ty gave him a crooked little grin back as he straightened up and shifted further forward on his knees, pushing Jared’s thighs up higher as he went. He knew the first time was a scary prospect, so he didn’t blame Jared for his nerves. At least Ty felt confident that Jared would let him know if it hurt too much or he wanted to stop, they already communicated really well in bed. It was necessary for this sort of thing. He gently pulled his fingers free and picked up the lube again to slather plenty of it over himself and then Jared’s ass, catching his bottom lip in his teeth. He glanced up toward his boyfriend’s face as he guided the tip of his cock into place. Slowly as promised, Ty started pushing forward with his hips. “Helps sometimes if you bear down a bit,” he murmured, just as a tip.
"Mmhmm," Jared hummed quietly, his smile fading to be replaced with concentration. He expected it to hurt, it was just the kind of thing that seemed like it should hurt the first time but Ty went slowly and everything was so slick that the pain never came. Jared held his breath for a moment, then let it out quietly through his mouth as his eyes started closing without him really thinking about it. "Fuck," he whispered, feeling full and a little weird but ultimately good, a lot better than he'd expected. Realizing vaguely how that might sound he added a quiet, "You're good, keep going."
Even though it wasn’t exactly pleasured, Ty liked that look on Jared’s face. It was intense, which lined up with how Ty was sure it felt, if Jared’s experience was anything like his. He remembered his first time, when he’d been in college, and Ty had been positive nothing else in the world felt quite like getting filled up with someone. He kept the pressure slow and steady, a little thankful that he had Jared to concentrate on as he sank his cock into that tight hot grip. Ty hadn’t fucked anything but someone’s mouth in quite a while, and it felt goddamn exquisite already. Once he got far enough, Ty let got of his cock and braced both hands against Jared’s legs instead to help hold them in place, glancing between his expression and where Ty was gradually pushing inside of him.
Intense was one word for it, though Jared wouldn't think it held a candle to how he actually felt. He'd expected a lot of things, feeling some pain, feeling self conscious, but he didn't have the wherewithal for that right now, his sole attention on the pressure as Ty's cock sank deeper inside him. Ty wasn't exactly small either and there was a slight sense of relief when he felt him press in close and knew he was all in. "Don't move," he whispered, gripping Ty's wrist with one hand while the other shifted somewhere underneath the pillow under his head. "Fuck," he exhaled again, opening his eyes to look up at his boyfriend. If it felt this intense now he couldn't imagine what it would feel like when Ty actually started moving and it made him wonder briefly how the hell Ty could like it rough. At the moment he'd think that it was too much but like Ty said, they were just getting started.
Not moving was a good idea, Ty was definitely on board with not moving, at least for a minute or two so they could both adjust. Because Jesus fuck, Jared’s ass felt good. It occurred to him belatedly that maybe he should’ve put a condom on just for staying power, but it was too late now. Lips parted, Ty looked back at him with hooded eyes, darker than they usually were with pleasure. Jared seemed too far away, so Ty carefully moved his arms to the other side of Jared’s legs and leaned over him, bracing his hands against the mattress. He made sure to keep his hips pressed against Jared as much as possible for that whole not-moving plan. He dipped his head lower to press a soft kiss against his lips, ready to pull back again if that change in angle seemed uncomfortable.
Jared kissed him back eagerly, cupping his head with his hand as he did so. Kissing was definitely good, almost distracting while he got used to the feeling of having Ty's cock inside him. The thought of it alone was mind-blowing and the actual sensation even more so. It was Jared who moved first, just a small experimental clench of muscles to get a feel for it and he groaned softly against Ty's lips. "Okay," he whispered. "We're good." Maybe not for hard core fucking just yet but they could start moving at least as his body was slowly accepting it all. He grinned against Ty's lips because it felt a little formal somehow and he was usually on the giving end of this exchange so it was all a little weird.
The kissing did help while the intensity of the sensation died down a bit. That lull wouldn’t last long, Ty knew, and he kind of hoped that Jared wouldn’t be ready for a serious hard fucking, because he wasn’t sure he would last more than a few strokes doing that. He could work with this, though, for sure. He smiled reflexively as Jared grinned; he never got enough of that feeling. “We’re better than good,” he whispered back, though he knew what Jared had meant. Bracing his forehead against Jared’s so they could both still breathe but stay close, Ty pulled his hips back a little, then pushed forward again. Then again and again, until he’d built into a slow, short rhythm, more rocking against Jared’s body than outright thrusting. Ty’s breathing was already heavier, and he let out a low groan as pleasure licked up his spine.
Jared had never considered himself to have a masochistic bone in his body so what he was feeling right then didn't make a whole lot of sense to him. It wasn't really painful but he felt like it almost was in a way that made him feel weirdly emotional. Fortunately it didn't have to make sense, he could just ride that emotion and be in the moment. He gripped Ty's head a little more tightly, biting his bottom lip as he squeezed his eyes shut, his breathing coming in shallow and ragged and then he was moaning in a way he was pretty sure he hadn't moaned before, almost pained, almost a whine as he ground his body back against Ty's and his balls felt like they were about to fucking burst.
“Oh Jesus,” Ty breathed the second Jared started making that sound, because holy fuck. He suddenly felt sure he was going to hear that in every sex dream he ever had for the rest of his life. He had to close his own eyes, because he couldn’t look at Jared’s mouth right then without wanting to come, and he had to hold out to make this good. The way Jared moved against him made that even more challenging, but Ty grit his teeth and tried to concentrate on what his own hips were doing instead. Soft sounds escaping him with every other breath, he worked his way into longer thrusts, unable to keep up the totally languid pace for long.
Jared had a feeling that if he was the least bit shy with Ty he would not be enjoying this at all. He felt weirdly vulnerable, exposed in a way he'd never felt before and on the verge of losing all control he had over his body. He kept gripping Ty's head, probably a little too hard and when Ty's pace changed the least bit he moaned louder, dropping his head back onto the pillow again. "Fuck," he groaned between moans and the way his cock rubbed against Ty's stomach shouldn't have been enough to get him off but with everything else that was going on it was just intense enough to bring him to the edge and keep him there in a quivering mess. He wasn't sure he could come while Ty was still fucking him, like it was too much all at once but he didn't want him to stop either.
Everything else felt so fucking good, Ty hardly noticed the way Jared’s fingers pressed hard against his skull. He did notice how he felt like their dynamic hadn’t changed in the slightest even though they’d switched places -- like Jared was still in charge and Ty was dedicated to his pleasure, even when he was drowning in his own. He opened his eyes again as he straightened his back a bit for better leverage, drinking in that blissfully pained expression on his boyfriend’s face. It made his chest feel over-full in a way that had nothing to do with how deep he was breathing. “Fuck, you feel so good, baby,” he breathed, in part to distract himself from other, stupider words. Ty shifted his arms and his knees and started to fuck Jared a little harder and faster, groaning loudly.
Talking seemed like too much so Jared didn't reply, at least not with words. He was plenty vocal though, moaning loudly with every thrust, clinging to Ty as he kept teetering on that 'too much' edge until he finally let go of Ty's head and slipped his hand between them. He needed to get off, it felt like if he didn't he might literally explode, like his whole body was a ticking time bomb and Ty was fucking with all the wrong - or in this case, right - wires. He was not a man who easily lost control, even during sex, so this was a headtrip all on its own, one he didn't have the brainpower to really think about in that moment. His climax was teasingly close and yet so reluctant to happen that when it did it was almost surprising and it did nothing to quiet him down.
Ty had sat up further when Jared reached between them. As much as he wanted to be close, he had more control from up there, and it gave Jared more room to stroke his cock. It also gave Ty an unbelievable view of the whole thing, from Jared’s strained face to his arching body to his flushed cock. He was fighting hard to hold his own orgasm back by the time Jared came, and relief flooded through Ty. He slowed down and pushed in deep, aware of how quickly being fucked could get painful with all that clenching going on. So Ty just tried to keep the pressure up against his prostate, his face a little sweaty and drawn in concentration. His balls positively ached from the sudden halt, and the urge to pull out and jerk off the rest of the way was strong as hell, but Ty held back on that too.
Jared had no idea orgasms could even last this long for a guy. It took a while before he ejaculated and all that pulsing and squirming was doing his head in. Ty did everything right but after a few seconds of that even that slight pressure was a little too much and he pulled back and pressed his messy hand against Ty's abdomen. "Pull out a little," he whispered breathlessly, opening his eyes to look at him and then unable to keep from laughing a little added, "Jesus fucking Christ, what the fuck." He was shaking, it was crazy, and he honestly felt like he could come again in seconds if he just took a moment to relax and then kept going. Crazy.
It was all gorgeous and hot to watch, and Ty had the vague thought of asking Jared if he could film it sometime. Who needed porn when this was available? Fuck. He pulled back when asked to, giving Jared a lopsided grin as his breath kept coming quickly. “All the way, or you good?” he murmured once he’d withdrawn his cock about halfway. Ty didn’t expect him to keep taking it until Ty came too, but he wasn’t going to complain if Jared was okay with it. There was nothing like the particular squeeze and stroke from someone else’s body. In the meantime he stroked his hands against Jared’s sides and up his thighs as if he could soothe some of those tremors himself.
"I'm okay just wait," Jared whispered hurriedly as if saying it too slowly meant Ty would pull out completely. He wasn't even sure yet if he could take more but he wanted to give it a minute and see because he really wanted Ty to come while fucking him instead of needing to jerk off after. He loved the way he was touching him, a nice soothing balance against the twitching of his body but at the same time he was very glad he wasn't touching his cock at all. He gave himself some time to breathe then looked up at Ty again, a little dazed looking. "It's good," he whispered, in case there was any doubt there. "You close?"
Ty’s body didn’t want to be patient, it wanted more rutting friction until it burst, but the urgency was cooling tiny bit by bit to a more manageable level. He couldn’t stop looking at Jared as he ran his fingers slowly over his skin, a little smile toying with his lips. Whether he had to jerk off or not, Ty felt accomplished because he’d obviously given Jared a good time. He looked sated and glowy-warm and a little amazed on top of it. Like he hadn’t expected it to be that good. “Yeah, real close,” he murmured back. “Don’t push yourself too much though.” He didn’t want Jared to take any pain just for his sake. He’d just said it was good, but Ty couldn’t stop wanting to take care of him.
Jared grinned a little at that and shook his head. "Fuck me," he whispered, feeling ready again and certain that if it proved to be too much he could ask Ty to pull out. That kind of confidence helped and he couldn't imagine doing this with a one night stand, especially not the first time. He had to admit it felt good to have him still inside of him, the feeling of 'too much' not quite as intense but still lurking around the corner just biding its time to overtake him again.
Those were the magic words, weren’t they? Ty’s stomach clenched pleasantly with fresh heat, and his small smile faded into something hungrier. He made sure there was enough lube on both of them, then pushed his cock fully into Jared again, still kind of slow just in case, but definitely with more selfish purpose this time. He felt relaxed around Ty now, but still deliciously tight. Ty re-planted his hands against the mattress, eyes still on his boyfriend’s face, and gradually started to build his rhythm back up. “Fuck,” he groaned quietly. “You want me to come in you?”
Jared closed his eyes again and moaned at the added pressure, gripping Ty's arm. "Yeah," he murmured because he knew how good that felt and it felt only fair somehow. He was also a bit curious about how it would feel or if he could really feel it at all since he loved that thing Ty's cock did when he came in his hand or mouth. "Fuck," he hissed softly because it was no less intense now even if he'd come, maybe even more so but hell if he was going to stop.
Ty’s balls were still feeling over-full and tight against his body, and his pleasure ramped up again pretty quickly, so he was moaning all over again within a couple of minutes. He tried to make it fast for Jared’s sake, which wasn’t really a challenge, thankfully. Ty’s brow furrowed with concentration as he grunted and groaned, unable to stop how hard and fast he thrusted for a few heartbeats until he peaked. “Fuck, Jare,” he panted, the words melting into a deep groan. Ty pushed his cock in deep and held it there while his spine shuddered and he fully let go, fists clenching in the sheets.
It almost hurt near the end but Jared was stubborn and it was a weirdly nice kind of hurt so he breathed through it and watched Ty's face with a slightly unfocused gaze wanting to see him come. He'd been right that he didn't really feel much of the details he so loved but it was amazing anyway, the look on Ty's face, the sounds he was making, the way his muscles tensed and shivered. "Fuck I love you," he whispered before he could think it through, stroking Ty's sides and arms.
The words caught Ty right at the end of his climax and brought an extra throb or two of pleasure with them ... along with a bad drop in his stomach. Because those were the bad, dangerous words that always ruined everything. His eyes had closed tight as he came, and he kept them that way for the moment to hold back the sudden confused jumble of feelings. Should he pretend he didn’t hear it? Say it back? Ignore it completely? Ty didn’t know. He felt it, he felt even more sure of that with his still-twitching dick buried inside of Jared, but could he actually express that well? Fuck. His arms felt weak and shaky suddenly, and Ty let his torso down to settle it against Jared’s, head against his chest as he worked on catching his breath.
It hadn't been the kind of an expression that required answering, not a romantic admittal of emotions so much as adrenaline and endorphin fuelled exclamation but Jared squinted at the ceiling as the realization of what he'd just said sank in. Did he explain himself? Take it back? Babble around it somehow? He had no clue and so he grimace-smiled as he rubbed Ty's head and back, feeling a little stupid. "That was intense," he whispered, a sort of an excuse without getting into the detail of it.
At least Jared hadn’t asked him why he didn’t say it back, Ty wasn’t sure he could’ve handled that at such a vulnerable moment. Jared petted him instead, and Ty closed his eyes again and tried to focus on just that feeling. Big, gentle hands on him. He needed to pull out, move, let Jared stretch his legs out again, check in and make sure he was okay, but Ty felt a little frozen, like doing any of that would make his silence even more obvious. This was probably inevitable, because he was never going to say it first, but he hadn’t been prepared. And he couldn’t help but feel like he was ruining their relationship by the millisecond. Fuck. Fuck, fuck fuck. “Yeah,” he finally agreed on an exhale. He needed to not freak out, he knew that. The more he freaked out, the worse everything would be, but god, what if this was it? It couldn’t be, he couldn’t let it be ...
It wasn't the silence that was getting to Jared as much as the not moving part and after a minute he nudged Ty gently. "Move," he murmured with a little titter because he needed a drink and a shower and most urgently to relax his body properly. For now he was opting to ignore what he'd said, like he hadn't even been aware of it because he was too far gone with pleasure or something. Or something. It beat rambling about how he had meant it but how it was too soon to say it and the words would probably come out all wrong anyway.
Since he’d been ordered to, moving was something Ty could do without tripping up too much. “Sorry,” he mumbled, his paralysis broken. He pushed himself up, still a little tremor in his arms, and rocked back to sit up on his knees again. Ty pulled his softening cock out of Jared and shuffled out of the way so he could move. He flopped onto his back for a stretch, rubbing his clean hand against his face and back over his buzzed head. “Jesus Christ,” Ty muttered, though it sounded more content than anything else. He’d ruined his own afterglow, but he didn’t want to totally fuck up Jared’s as well, so if he wasn’t going to say anything about it, neither was Ty. That was what seemed like a good enough plan at the moment anyway.
Jared grinned faintly, though his own stomach was in knots too and he glanced over at Ty sleepily. "So does this get less intense with time or are you just some kind of sex olympian?" he asked, only half joking. "I can barely remember my name." He closed his eyes again and let out a little laugh, shaking his head. "Fuck." There were a lot more words in his head, none of which would make any sense said out loud because he wasn't going to apologize for what he said and he wasn't going to ask Ty if he felt the same or start insisting he hadn't meant it or any other thing he could say. Not right now at least, he needed a little space to think before he said anything at all.
Ty huffed a laugh of his own, rolling up onto his side and propping his head on his hand to look at Jared better. He didn’t look upset or anything, so Ty told himself not to fret about it so much. He wasn’t sure if he would be able to, but he could try. “You get more used to it, yeah,” he murmured, his gaze drifting over Jared’s features. He wanted to say too many things too, he wanted to explain, tell Jared just how strong his feelings really were, but how scary it all was and just ... everything. He knew he wouldn’t do it well though, and they’d been having such a much-needed good night. “It stays pretty intense, though. M’glad you liked it,” he added softly.
Jared opened his eyes again and smiled at him, quiet for a beat as he enjoyed just looking at him. "I'm having a bit of a... Why didn't I do this sooner and I'm glad I didn't do this sooner," he said then, laughing as he wondered if that made sense. "You did good." He wanted to say he was glad he'd done it with Ty but it felt too heavy after what he'd blurted out so that could wait. He was glad for it though, doing something like this with someone he absolutely trusted with his life on a daily basis felt significant.
The way he looked when he laughed like that did strong things to Ty’s chest and very nearly put a lump in his throat. He scooted closer, curling one arm around the top of Jared’s head and resting his knee against his stomach ... which was still sticky, but Ty didn’t care. He bent down to kiss Jared, soft and lingering for a moment. He was supposed to not be fretting, but he was just feeling so much at the moment, it was hard not to. “Me too,” he whispered in between kisses. “I just can’t ... jinx it.” It sounded so stupid, but he didn’t have effective words for how it all made him feel.
It wouldn't have made a lick of sense to Jared if he hadn't been thinking about the same thing, unable to push it out of his mind and move on. Ty's words, as out of context as they might have sounded to anyone else, gave him that same feeling as being in a landing plane did only it felt weirdly good. He smiled against Ty's lips and quietly acknowledged what he'd said and it didn't sound stupid at all. "Come shower with me," he murmured then. "Clean up this mess you made."
That lump that could’ve gone either way swelled into something Ty had to actively swallow down. His eyes got a little watery and he pressed another, firmer kiss to Jared’s mouth, short but full of a fierce sort of gratitude. He pulled back and rolled off of his boyfriend, giving his chest an affectionate thump as he climbed off the bed. “Let’s go then, you filthy animal,” he teased, maybe not as lightly as usual, but getting there. “I wanna see how funny you walk now.” Ty grinned at him, starting to walk backward toward the bathroom.
Jared laughed too as he sat up cautiously and grumbled a soft "fuck you." He shuffled off the bed and then pouted at Ty before actually standing up. "You should carry me," he joked. "I don't think I'll make it." Truth be told he didn't feel bad at all, he definitely still felt what they'd been up to and everything but it didn't hurt and a second later he got up, shaking his head with amusement. "You think you wrecked me?" he murmured as he started after Ty to the bathroom, strolling slowly and enjoying the view.
Ty knew he would be fine even if he ended up a little sore. They hadn’t gone at it really hard. Maybe they’d get there. But if not, what had just happened had been fucking perfect and hot and beautiful, and Ty was a little selfishly glad that Jared enjoyed it, because that meant he would get to fuck him again. “Oh I know I did,” he said back, smirking as he kept backing up. “You’ll never wanna top again, you’re totally ruined now.”
Jared snorted. "Your loss," he said smugly and sped up just enough to catch up with Ty, hooking one arm around his shoulders in a makeshift hug. "Something tells me that wouldn't make you happy." He had liked it but it had a certain intensity to it that he wasn't sure he could handle all that often so Ty was 'safe', unless he decided he preferred topping all of a sudden.
He stopped walking so they could embrace for a second, giving the front of Jared’s shoulder a little headbutt as he chuckled. “Nah, I’d miss your dick too much,” he murmured with an almost sheepish grin. He kissed Jared’s skin and then pulled back and turned to walk into the bathroom. Ty headed for the toilet, giving Jared’s ass a soft slap as he crossed behind him. “You did good too, though, by the way,” he said.
Jared didn't feel like he'd done much of anything and he laughed again as he started the shower. "Took it like a man," he growled before thinking better of it. "Or maybe not, I think the whole of Seaview knows we had sex by now." He gave Ty a joking 'sorry' smile and made a soft clicking sound at him. It was a real concern but one that felt too abstract to really worry about. A later time problem if there was one in the first place.
Oh yeah, Jared had been pretty loud, hadn’t he? Ty glanced over as he started to pee, giving a little laugh. “What do they know, we could’ve been sharing a girl,” he said, like that was a thing people did all the time. Ty had known nosy neighbors could definitely be a possibility, at either of their places, but it was getting harder and harder to care about it anymore. Somewhere in his head he could admit that he was inching closer and closer to coming out. Maybe it made him a fucking coward that he couldn’t do it until he was in a relationship -- until he had backup -- but it was what it was. Jared deserved better than to have to live in the closet with him.
"Yeah, you wanna come up with a name? In case someone asks?" Jared said, still grinning as he got under the warm water and started scrubbing off. "Has to be an out of towner, obviously." He didn't really give a shit if they told people about this yet or not but lying would be harder. He already found it difficult not to make eyes at Ty at work and if someone directly questioned him he wasn't sure he could look them in the eye and lay some bullshit on them. Another later-time problem.
“Obviously,” Ty said over the rush of the water. He finished up and flushed, then padded over to climb into the shower behind Jared. He couldn’t resist giving his butt a few pinches while it was all soapy, gradually feeling better and better about everything. “Her name was Carol and she was super hot and you’re all just jealous haters,” he murmured with a smirk. Ty was pretty sure they weren’t being serious about that, he wasn’t sure anyone who knew them would actually believe it anyway.
"Oh em gee, haters," Jared said with a titter as he turned around to face Ty, grinning warmly down at him. He definitely felt better too. Ty had all but said he loved him, which was way too early and everything but it had worked for that moment and what better way of expressing the feelings he knew were there anyway? It was such a stupid word. He could have told him he loved hot showers and he loved thai food but tell Ty he loved him and everything got weird. It had worked out though, for now at least, and his chest felt full and warm with feelings.