Re: Jasper & Jules (& Gavin)
It wasn't any of his business and she had said she was sorry and had meant it. But Jasper was pushing and being an asshole and Jules could feel her temper beginning to fray at the edges. What business was it of his what she had done while they were broken up? Her heart was racing with furious adrenaline now and Jules glared at him. Why did they have to do this now? And here? What was his problem? "No, Ethan wasn't next, he was first," she spat angrily. "But we're allowed to fuck our best friends, right? That's what you'd wanted to do and have been doing. Do you see me asking you if you'd fucked around with anyone else? Whatever I did while we weren't together is my business, not yours." And she didn't think he would understand that she'd been searching for solace of some kind, something that would ease the pain of breaking up with Jasper and feeling lost after everything that had happened. Did it even matter now?
The admission felt like a slap in the face, and Jasper’s eyes widened slightly before his expression twisted back into a scowl. He hadn’t wanted to think it was true, but she had slept with Ethan, the guy in her life she knew made him the most insecure. “I got dumped for being too honest,” he hissed at her, his stare hot as he leaned a bit closer to her face. “I didn’t even want to break up over it. And I haven’t been out here fucking every girl I know -- I haven’t touched another girl this whole fucking time, Jules, because of you. Because it’s different. You said you didn’t like him like that, and that was obviously bullshit.” His fists clenched with the urge to grab her and squeeze, to hurt her like all this information was hurting him. “You can hold Logan over my head forever now, but it’s not my business that you slept with that bougie asshole? Go be with your best friend then, have fun with your fucking key or whatever the fuck.”
"I'm sorry, are you saying fucking Logan doesn't count because he has a dick?" Jules asked incredulously. "We broke up because you wanted to fuck someone else, it doesn't fucking matter what they've got between their legs. All I ever wanted was you because you were enough for me. I wasn't enough for you. You didn't want to break up over it but you sure as hell didn't wait to have sex with the guy after we did, did you? As for Ethan, I don't want to be with him. We were in that other place and I was hurt and it felt good to be around someone who just wanted me, and I'm sorry, I needed that. It was one time and he knows I just want him as a friend. Can you say the same thing about Logan?" Jules lifted her hands to rub them over her face in exasperation. Pressure was building behind her eyes but she didn't want to start crying in this place, around all these dumb people. "God, Jasper, you just don't understand, do you? I haven't said shit about him since we got back together. You want to fucking live with the guy and I've got to be okay with it. All this stupid stuff is in the past and it's over and I just want to be here with you."
Jasper was shaking his head through a lot of what she said, his jaw clenched. He didn’t understand? It felt like she didn’t understand, and she never would. Her demand for this impossible control over his desires she seemed to think he should have -- only ever wanting Jules, even in passing, forever and ever -- wasn’t something he could give her, and the way he’d kept it all in check since they’d gotten back together wasn’t enough. Even if Jules hadn’t said anything about it, she was obviously still harboring resentment over it and apparently how fast he’d moved on it?