logan rees (_problematic_) wrote in shadows_rpg, @ 2022-09-08 13:45:00 |
|
|||
Entry tags: | #july 2018, jasper, jasper x logan, logan |
Who: Logan and Jasper
When: Early afternoon, July 3rd
Where: Logan’s house
Status: Complete
Warning: NSFW
Logan had worked the night before so he did what he always did the next day when he wasn’t scheduled for the lunch shift - he slept. At some point he heard his mom get up and head out to work but when he woke up next, it was to his phone buzzing with a message. Finding his way out of his tangle of blankets, Logan grappled for his phone on his nightstand before lifting his head to squint sleepily at the screen. It was already one o’clock? And Jasper wanted to come over.
Rubbing some of the sleep crusties from his eyes, Logan rolled onto his back and thumbed back a quick response before he stretched and pushed his blankets back. He needed to shower and get some coffee, but he was down to hang with his best friend for a while.
By the time Jasper’s car had pulled up into the driveway, Logan had managed a quick shower and tugged on a pair of shorts. He was just starting the Keurig when he heard the car and he walked to the front door to unlock and open it.
“Hey man,” he greeted, pushing open the screen door as Jasper neared the porch.
As he’d promised, Jasper had stayed with Jules at the hospital the evening before until visiting hours were over and a nurse ushered him out. He’d had a restless sort of night after that, his mind spinning in all kinds of different directions. They’d only been separated for a few weeks, but it had felt like forever to him, but still not long enough to sort all of his shit out. He just wasn’t doing a great job of that on his own. They both knew there was work to do and more to talk out once Jules felt better, but part of him was so stupidly happy that she wanted to try again ... he definitely had a lot of mixed feelings.
Jasper had been glad to have the next day off, and he’d wanted to sleep in, but Ruby had changed that plan. He’d done his best to comfort her from her ordeals, until she’d headed home again to try and sleep more. The urge he’d woken up with to see and talk to Logan hadn’t gone away, so Jasper reached out to him, and soon enough he was climbing out of his car. “Hey,” he greeted as he stepped into the house, his gaze sweeping over his half-dressed friend. “You just got up, huh?”
“How can you tell?” Logan grinned and rubbed his hand over Jasper’s head before leading him back to the kitchen. “Had to close last night and hung out with some people after. Want something to drink?” He was going to get a cup of coffee and cigarette and chill with his best friend, which was honestly the best way to start the day, no matter what time it was. “You work today?”
He chuckled and gave Logan’s ass a swat as they headed back toward the kitchen. He looked rumpled and sleepy and gorgeous, and none of it helped the mixed feelings Jasper was already having. “Coffee’s all right, sure,” he answered as he found an out of the way spot to lean against the counter. “Nah, I’m off today. Got some plans later but I wanted to see you first ... Jules is in the hospital. She’s gonna be okay and everything, but she’s gotta stay for a few more days. Hopefully that’s all.” Jasper hadn’t quite meant to jump right into it, but it was news, and he knew Logan cared about Jules, at least somewhat.
Logan pulled two coffee cups from the cabinet, pausing abruptly when Jasper mentioned Jules being in the hospital. "Jesus," he said, finally setting the cups on the counter. "What the fuck happened?" He had been hearing weird things about the carnival that was in town but it was gone now, so he didn't think anything had happened to her there. The Boathouse might have been a more upscale establishment, but people still liked to gossip, especially the waitstaff.
Jasper sighed. Jules might not like him talking about the full scope of what had happened to her, but Logan was his best friend and Jasper didn’t want to withhold anything from him. “Well, she was in a car accident, that’s what sent her to the ER to start with,” he began. “Ethan was driving. So I first thought like, maybe they were drunk. But then she told me that they were both really sick. The doctors said their bodies were shutting down. It was from something they like, breathed in, in some other portal place? They were exploring a couple weeks ago and got infected or something and it just built until it almost killed them. The car accident was probably lucky, to be honest.” He was still processing how he felt about all of that, but most of it wasn’t good.
Logan's brow cocked in disbelief as Jasper spoke. This kind of shit was normal here and that felt so abnormal to Logan. "So they were already sick and got into an accident which probably saved their lives? That's fucked up. Lucky, but also fucked up." He paused briefly as he slipped a coffee cup beneath the Keurig to start brewing. "Someone at work talked about some car that flipped off the road over the weekend... didn't know whose car it was though. I wonder if that was them. You said she was gonna be okay though, right?" It didn't surprise him that Jasper talked to her, or went to see her. Maybe getting that sick would stop Jules from messing around with other dimensions.
“It’s definitely fucked up,” Jasper muttered, but honestly, what wasn’t fucked up? He was starting to think the answer was ‘nothing.’ Hearing about Logan’s coworker gave him a weird little chill, even though he’d heard about it second-hand himself. He wondered how long they’d been in that car after the crash, who called the ambulance, how close Jules had come to dying. Things that would drive him crazy to think about too much. “That’s what she said the doctors said, at least,” he answered, his brow furrowed a bit. “But they were still running tests and stuff. She feels better than she did, even though she like, broke her wrist and stuff. And she wasn’t hooked up to a bunch of shit, so I guess she’s doing okay.” He slipped his hands into his pockets. “It wasn’t the doctors who fixed her though, it was one of those scientist dudes she’s been talking to about her ... stuff, y’know.”
A broken wrist sucked but it was better than being dead. Logan picked up the coffee mug once the stream had trailed off to a drip, handing it to Jasper to fix the way he wanted. His friend had spent enough time in Logan's house to know his way around the kitchen. Lifting a brow, Logan slipped his own coffee cup beneath the Keurig to start a cup for himself. "That's... creepy. I don't know why, but it is. But I guess if there was some supernatural shit going on, a doctor probably wouldn't know what to do about it." He shot Jasper a pointed look. "You sound like you've got something on your mind." Jules had gotten hurt, but she was okay. But Jasper still looked mildly disgruntled.
Jasper accepted the coffee and moved to start dumping sugar into it, as familiar with Logan’s kitchen as he was his own. Or Charlie’s, whatever. He was even more comfortable here, if he was being honest. Logan was right -- it was pretty creepy. Jasper still didn’t know if he trusted those people, even though Jules did. He was grateful that someone was able to step in and save her life, but would she even have needed that if she hadn’t been working with these mystery-scientists in the first place? It was all stuff that was beyond Jasper. Logan’s comment made him chuckle darkly. “Dude, what don’t I have on my mind, fuck,” he muttered. “I got a visit from Ruby this morning too ... you ever heard of the Dark Man? Some skinny ass tall motherfucker with a bowler hat?”
Logan chuckled softly, because Jasper had a point. He doubted his friend's brain ever shut off. With his coffee finished, he leaned against the kitchen counter to take a tentative sip. As Jasper mentioned the Dark Man, Logan's dark brows drew together thoughtfully before he shook his head. "No, I don't think so? I mean, I've never seen anyone in a bowler hat and I can't remember if anyone had mentioned him before. Why?" The Dark Man was a pretty ominous name, but this whole town was full of ominous bullshit. Still, Logan was curious.
Jasper’s brain only seemed to quiet down when he was really intoxicated or having sex, or both, so he’d been doing a lot of that since he’d gotten home. Otherwise it was constant noise, more internal monologue than he could remember ever having before. Funny how being locked in an alternate hell dimension could give someone anxiety or PTSD or whatever it was. Jasper wasn’t focused on himself at the moment though, thinking more of Ruby and his dad. “I knew about him -- it -- because my dad told me that he saw it once. I dunno if it’s like ... some ghost or a demon or whatever, but it’s way too tall and long and has all these sharp teeth, definitely not human,” he explained. “Well Ruby saw it too, months ago, and then last night she had this dream about it, where it caught up to her Freddy Krueger style, and it grabbed her ankle in the dream, and then she woke up with cuts all over her ankle.”
Damn. Jasper had really come over this morning with all kinds of cheery news. Logan’s brows furrowed as he listened, trying to imagine such a man, or creature, wandering around Point Pleasant and now attacking people in their sleep. He knew plenty about this town but sometimes he wondered if everyone was just crazy or if he was just really lucky, having never really experienced the scary shit like so many people he knew. “That’s… scary as fuck,” he admitted with a soft, slightly nervous laugh. “There’s nothing you can do to protect yourself in your sleep… except wake up, I guess. I would ask if she’s okay but if she ended up with cuts on her ankle, I’m going to guess that she’s probably freaked out.”
“Yeah,” Jasper sighed. She was freaked out and Jasper couldn’t blame her in the slightest. He was pretty freaked out on her behalf, worried that it might be worse the next time Ruby woke up. “Like what do you even do? You gotta sleep sometime. We can just ... hope it’s over now, I guess.” Ruby had seen the Dark Man months ago and it had taken this long for him to pop up in her dreams, maybe it would go away again for a long time, or forever. There was no way to know and that was one of the scarier parts about all of it. “Oh and her idiot boyfriend cheated on her, so she had a breakup a few days ago too.” He was sure the two things weren’t connected, but they definitely sucked for Ruby.
All they ever did was hope things were over, but were they ever? It always seemed like it was one thing after another in this town. Logan occasionally thought about leaving again, moving to the true coast, somewhere warmer. But he knew he wouldn't. Leaving seemed kind of impossible now. "Damn, that sucks. Not a great week for her then," Logan said with a grimace. He didn't know what it felt like to be cheated on, mostly because he never put himself in the position for it to happen. It seemed like all relationships ended with some kind of bullshit. What was the point? "She's hot, and she's cool... doubt she'll be single for long." He eyed Jasper as he took another sip of coffee. "You ever think about...?" He didn't think Ruby and Jasper had ever hooked up, but they were friends and Logan was of the mind that girls and guys could never stay fully platonic.
Jasper doubted Ruby would be single for long too, and he hoped whoever was next would be good for her. He didn’t think she’d been head over heels for Clint Nolan, of all people, but she deserved someone who made her feel that way and wouldn’t cheat on her. He raised a brow over the rim of his coffee mug at Logan’s question, though it wasn’t too ridiculous of an idea, he thought. “About fucking her? Yeah, sometimes,” he answered honestly. Logan was the only person he could be completely open with, he was pretty sure. “She’s hot, like you said. But I’m pretty sure it would fuck up our friendship, and Jules would probably never forgive me for that one, so ...” Jasper shrugged. “But like, dating? I dunno, Ruby’s more like another sister. She did tell me she was in love with me once, but then came back and said like, it was the town fucking with her, one of those bullshit manipulation things. ... Do you, ever? I can kinda see you two together, honestly.” Jasper grinned faintly at him. “For the whole five minutes you’d commit to someone.”
Logan's brows rose at the knowledge that Ruby had told Jasper she loved him. And then took it back apparently. Town bullshit or not... could it really make people lie? He wasn't about to ask and risk putting thoughts into Jasper's head. It was clearly in the past. "Look at you being a good guy and shit," Logan said with a grin. "But, I mean... yeah, who wouldn't think about fucking Ruby. But I don't know a lot of people looking for a five minute relationship. I can't promise I'd be any better than her boyfriend and not cheat on her, so it's better not to risk it. I'm shocked, shocked that you could see me together with anyone." He chuckled and ran a hand through his bedhead. "Besides, wouldn't you be a little jealous?"
It had been a weird head trip at the time, but Jasper knew better than most how this town and the things that happened here could fuck with you. He’d done so many things he never would have otherwise, under the influence of the fog monster shit. He didn’t doubt that something could make Ruby spout some nonsense, and it had never come up again, so he had to assume she wasn’t actually in love with him. All that felt like ages ago anyway. Jasper’s lips twisted up wryly at the question. “I’d be a lot jealous, sure,” he said. Why bother to pretend that he wouldn’t? That he wasn’t? “I’m jealous of like, everybody you fuck, man, if I’m being honest. Jules too. Though I dunno if she’s doing that or not.” It was weird how he didn’t even really feel vulnerable or guilty for admitting that. It was what it was, and he had so many more shitty emotions besides jealousy, it didn’t feel like a big deal.
Logan had mostly been joking so he was a little surprised to hear Jasper was jealous of people Logan fooled around with. Jules Logan could understand, since they had a history and stuff. Jasper had just never come across as the jealous type, though Logan wasn't really one to brag about his sexual encounters either. Not in a boastful way, anyway. "Jealous in a way that bothers you?" Logan asked after a moment of thought. He wasn't trying to be difficult or start some deep, potentially upsetting conversation, but he definitely didn't want to be doing shit that upset his friend. Or at least making sure he wasn't talking about it. "You're really not fooling around with anyone else?"
When it came to Logan, Jasper knew very well that his jealous feelings were his own problem. He’d known for years and accepted how slutty his best friend was. And while the two of them finally hooking up had made that jealousy more pronounced, Jasper had it all under control. It was one of the few things he felt like he had a handle on, at least. “Nah, not really,” he said with a small shrug. “I mean, I traded blowjobs with a guy I knew from the other side. Elodie spends the night a lot, but we don’t do anything. That’s ... been it.” Jasper let out a little laugh. Maybe that was pathetic and he wasn’t taking advantage of the freedom he’d had, but he was barely keeping it together in the first place, he hadn’t had the energy to go seek out a bunch of new partners. “But it doesn’t bother me dude, don’t worry about it. We didn’t make any promises to each other, do your thing.” He definitely didn’t want Logan to do anything special for him or make sacrifices he didn’t want to make. Jasper could handle his own feelings. That one, at least.
Logan wasn't going to argue. He knew himself well enough to know monogamy wasn't for him, though if he was going to try and change for someone, it'd probably be for Jasper. "I get it. You've got a lot of shit on your mind, sex probably isn't really one of those things," he said after a moment. “You know you're like, my favorite person though, right? I'd drop all that shit for you." Jasper was really the only person in this town he truly gave a fuck about, other than his mom. Even if Logan was in the middle of a fucking orgy, he'd leave if Jasper needed him. That was probably a ridiculous thought to have, but those who knew Logan well knew that was a big deal.
The bad thing was, sex had been on his mind when he’d confessed his feelings to Jules, it had just been very specific sex with a very specific person, and not just anybody who came along. That had been the thing that got him into trouble with her in the first place. It would probably sound too needy to clarify, and the rest of what Logan said was more important anyway. Jasper’s chest felt too warm and he smiled as he set his coffee mug down and moved in closer to loosely wrap his arms around Logan. “You’re my favorite person too,” he murmured. “I can’t ... drop Jules. I know you wouldn’t ask me to. But you’re the only one I tell everything to.” Jasper trusted Logan with his life, with his truth, with everything he had. It made him a little sad to think that soon they wouldn’t be able to be this together anymore.
A lopsided grin formed on Logan's face as Jasper neared. "I'd never ask you to drop Jules, or anything like that. I just... wanna make sure you're doing things that you need, or want, to do... shit's complicated enough, you know?" He'd never tell Jasper what to do, but he definitely wanted to make sure his friend was happy. Or at least, getting to where he could be. Setting his own coffee down, Logan ran his hands over Jasper's head, enjoying the feel of the hair that had begun to grow back. "I'm still gonna be that person, whether we're fucking or not." He pressed a kiss to Jasper's lips, only because he was so close and because Logan wanted to. "I'll take anything I can get."
Jasper appreciated that Logan was watching his back like that, with his best interest at heart. He just didn’t really have a clue anymore what he needed to do, and what he wanted was so contradictory so often ... he still felt so confused. Shit was definitely complicated. His eyelids drooped when Logan kissed him, a warmth tingling in his belly that didn’t have a lot to do with how sexy his best friend was. It was mostly because Jasper actually believed that he would be that person, and that made Logan so precious to him. Love with no caveats, he needed it. Jasper just nodded a little and kissed him again, his arm tightening a bit around Logan to keep him close, wanting more of his lips and head-rubs for a lingering few moments. “I think, when Jules gets out of the hospital, we’re gonna try again,” he murmured finally, still staying close.
Lingering in the closeness was nice because Jasper was really the only person Logan would do that with. His hands paused briefly when Jasper mentioned getting back together with Jules, but then he was rubbing Jasper's hair again, not entirely surprised to hear the news. The two had a history and sometimes Bad Things made people realize how short life could be. "That could be a good thing," Logan said finally. "As long as it's something you both want to do." He couldn't really give relationship advice, considering he had only ever been in one or two himself and he was pretty shit at them. But he had a feeling that this also meant he and Jasper couldn't fool around anymore, which was pretty damn disappointing.
It sounded like a careful answer to Jasper, which felt both good and bad in different ways. Logan was the most supportive best-friend-turned-lover-but-still-best-f
For a second Logan considered telling Jasper that he could have them both... he just didn't have to tell Jules. But suggesting that Jasper lie to Jules just as they were getting back together seemed like a bad idea and would only add to all of the complications. "Maybe you will," Logan agreed, letting his hands fall down to Jasper's waist. "It never hurts to have people around who love you, especially when things are shitty. Who knows, maybe it'll get better and Jules will be more open to stuff." Girls thought it was hot when guys kissed, right? Even if Jules demanded monogamy, he just hoped she wouldn't try to make Jasper force Logan out of his life.
“Yeah, maybe,” Jasper agreed, quiet and doubtful. He knew Jules took it personally, it made her doubt how much he actually loved her, since she couldn’t seem to wrap her head around him having the capacity to Want two people at once. Not only that, Jasper had feelings for both of them, they were just so vastly different. He didn’t know how to explain it right. Even if he didn’t want to, he would stop fucking Logan to try and heal their relationship, and tone down on the affection ... but that was the line. Jasper had already decided that if Jules tried to say he couldn’t be friends with Logan anymore, then the whole thing was canceled. He needed his best friend. He guessed he didn’t need to sleep with him ... but it was going to be hard to go back to how things had been before, now that that pandora’s box was open. Hard but worth it, hopefully. Jasper squeezed Logan a bit tighter and lifted his head to look at him. “Not yet, though,” he murmured. “We’re gonna take it slow, once she’s home.”
"Oh yeah?" Logan grinned a little, because he didn't want things getting too heavy, or Jasper getting too down about things. "So that means we get to fool around until she's home?" It was Jasper's relationship and Logan wasn't going to fuck around with it. He'd be there in any capacity Jasper needed him to be, though. As corny as it sounded in his head, he really did just want Jasper to be happy, whatever form that happiness took. Hopefully he and Jules could be happy and work through things together. And if not, well, Logan would still be there for him.
Jules would probably not be happy about it, but Jasper felt that this thing between him and Logan deserved a proper goodbye and not just this abrupt ending because he and Jules had impulsively decided to reconcile. It didn’t feel like they were together again yet, it wasn’t official, so he was still single and could do what he wanted. And god knew he wanted to have Logan again. “At least one ... or two more times,” he murmured, giving Logan a little half-grin back. He couldn’t help it. “I wanna give it like, a good send off, y’know? We need just a whole night to ourselves. I dunno about tonight though, it’s my dad’s birthday. Which you’re always welcome to come to, you’re family.”
Logan would give Jasper as many sexy goodbyes as he wanted. A part of him wondered if Jasper would actually be able to return to monogamy, but that was really none of his business at the end of the day. "Oh wow, another fun-filled Lucas family party?" He grinned and kept Jasper close, his hands sliding down to Jasper's hips. "You know I'll go if you want me to go. Please tell me it's not a surprise party though." He honestly couldn't see Gavin Lucas enjoying a bunch of people yelling surprise at him when he walked through the door. Knowing Jasper's family, it would be a low key affair, which was just fine with him.
Everything was still up in the air, and while Jasper hated that, there wasn’t much he could do about it at the same time. He was getting more accustomed to feeling helpless and clueless, and maybe that wasn’t a great thing, but it was at least stressing him out less. Or maybe he was getting numb, he didn’t know. He would try to be a good boyfriend to Jules though. Jasper laughed softly at the idea of throwing his dad a surprise party -- the mental image of Gavin just turning on his heel and walking out was very clear -- and shook his head. “Nah, Charlie’s not stupid, so he knows about it. Just a chill thing. But there’s food and cake and all my hot aunts, so thought you might wanna come,” he murmured with a grin.
"Hot uncles too," Logan said with a raise of his brows. He couldn't help it, Jasper had a good looking family. "Seriously though, yeah, I'll go. We can disappear again if it gets too crazy. When is it?" He figured they still had time before a party and could hang out for a while, unless Jasper was going to go back to the hospital to see Jules. Logan was flexible enough and would shift his day around his best friend.
Jasper made a face at the uncles bit, because more of them were blood related to him than his aunts, but he wasn’t completely blind, he knew all the Lucases were good looking. It was one of the few advantages they had in life. “Uhhh, in a few hours, I think?” he said, scrunching one side of his face up. He hadn’t really asked for the details. He wanted to go visit Jules today too, but he was starting to see that his day might be packed. He definitely hadn’t bet on Ruby showing up needing his help. Maybe he could squeeze a quick visit in before they locked the doors to visitors. “No pressure though, you know how my family does shit. Dad would kill us all if we tried to sing to him or something.” Jasper snickered.
"You think he'd kill me if I sang to him?" Logan asked with a grin. "He's not gonna hurt your best friend, right?" Ducking his head down, Logan nibbled lightly at Jasper's neck. They had a few hours, right? And Jasper was still technically single and all that. He wouldn't do anything Jasper didn't want to do but now that he was awake with a little bit of coffee in him and all the news stuff out of the way, he was more acutely aware that they were alone and his mom wouldn't be home until the evening.
The thought flickered through Jasper’s mind that Gavin might hurt his best friend if he knew what the two of them got up to -- but it was more likely he would hurt Jasper, if anyone at all. Most likely he would just be weird and uncomfortable about it and never acknowledge it again, but it still wasn’t something Jasper wanted his entire family to know. Nor did he really want to think about his father anymore, not with Logan’s lips against his neck sending happily little tingles down his body. This was probably the most privacy he was going to get all day, and he let one hand explore Logan’s chest as he let out a soft sound. “More than my best friend,” he murmured absently.
Logan was well aware of Jasper's family and how they might react to Jasper being bi, but he worried more about Jasper than himself. But things seemed to be going okay and unless Jasper decided to tell his dad about Logan himself, Logan didn't think anyone was really going to find out. Smiling against Jasper's neck, Logan let his hands slip underneath Jasper's shirt until he found bare skin. "Yeah? What else? Best friend and...?" He already knew the answer, but it was still fun to ask, especially now that he was getting his hands on Jasper the way he wanted to.
Jasper tittered even as Logan’s touch against his bare skin sent happy tingles through his core. He moved to do the same, tugging Logan’s shirt up enough to stroke his sides and back and all that smooth skin. “Best friend and lover?” he suggested, smirking at how cheesy that sounded. “Best friend and favorite fuckbuddy? Mistress? I know you don’t wanna be my boyfriend, so what do you like?” Jasper was sure Logan knew what he meant to Jasper, what he would always mean regardless of whether Jasper was monogamous and with Jules or not. What they had went beyond all those dumb words that seemed so outdated and meaningless for them. Logan was just Logan to him, and that meant enough by itself.
Logan snickered at some of the terms, especially mistress. "Hey, I never said I didn't wanna be your boyfriend," Logan said, letting his fingertips dip inside the waistband of Jasper's jeans. His body was definitely happy to be touched by Jasper and his cock was starting to stir at the closeness. "I kinda figured that's what we were anyway." Non-monogamous boyfriends, but still boyfriends. He definitely knew what he meant to Jasper and hopefully Jasper knew what he meant to Logan. They had never really been guys who needed to talk to each other about their feelings. Things were what they were and it always felt like they were on the same page.
Unspoken same-pages were sometimes vague, and Jasper was a little surprised that Logan thought of him as a boyfriend. He knew Logan didn’t have some overly romantic notion that they were dedicated, faithful partners -- they both knew better. But it still made his chest feel warmer to hear it from Logan. His own body starting to wake up to all of the touching and privacy, Jasper dipped in to kiss him on the mouth instead of answering right away. Logan’s pants were much lighter and stretchier, and it didn’t take much effort for Jasper to sneak a hand in there to touch him. “Bestie and boyfriend, then,” he murmured against Logan’s lips as his fingers curled around his cock. Maybe that second title would have to be set aside soon, but he felt like he should take advantage of it while he could.
Logan always did his best to be upfront with people he was sleeping, or fooling around with. He had gone through enough drama in the past to want to avoid it as much as possible now. But he and Jasper seemed to understand each other in ways other people couldn't, and it worked for them. He might have responded to Jasper but coherency seemed to have flitted away from his brain as soon as Jasper's fingers touched his cock. All he could do was release a low groan in his throat. Now that they were touching, Logan drew his hands around to start undoing Jasper's jeans, wanting to get inside his friend's pants too. Pressing small kisses to Jasper's lips, Logan managed to get Jasper's jeans loose enough that he could slip his hand into them to feel Jasper's cock too. Christ, it was going to be hard letting this go when the time came. But he wanted to make it as good as he could for them both before it had to end. "Wanna go to my room?" he murmured.
Jasper hadn’t been consciously thinking about anything with Logan in capital-R relationship terms, but now that it was kind of out there, it felt true. Whether they said it or not, there was something deeper between them than just buddies who played with each other’s bodies sometimes. The love wasn’t the same as his love for Jules, but that didn’t mean it didn’t exist, and it was going to suck to shove it back into a box inside of him. Maybe nobody ever loved two different people the exact same way. He just didn’t know if Jules would ever understand it, and he couldn’t lose her. Jasper didn’t want to lose Logan either, but Logan wasn’t requiring that kind of choice out of him. Logan would stay, and Jasper just loved him harder for it. He let out a shuddery breath as Logan’s hand reached its destination, and he nodded, giving his friend’s cock a firm squeeze before he pulled back so they could relocate.
Leaving his coffee behind - because he definitely didn't need it anymore - Logan led Jasper to his bedroom. He didn't bother closing the door behind them, since they'd be home alone for most of the day. Instead he went right for Jasper’s shirt, just to get it up and off so he could get his hands on some bare skin again. Labels and worrying about tomorrow made no sense to Logan, so instead he focused on Jasper and enjoying what little time they had left to be intimate. He kind of hoped Jules would come around eventually and let Jasper have some fun every now and then, but he couldn't predict the future so he'd take what he could. Once Jasper's shirt was out of the way, Logan kissed him while his hands roamed, groping and pressing into Jasper's flesh.
He was more than happy to be stripped and touched and kissed like that, and Jasper pushed his mouth into it harder, his tongue delving deep into Logan’s mouth like he wanted to devour him. He only broke the connection to tug Logan’s t-shirt up over his head too, fresh heat flashing through his body when he felt their bare chests touch. Jasper groaned softly as their mouths reconnected, his hands sliding over Logan’s lovely torso as he pulled their bodies flush together. He could feel the bulge of Logan’s erection against his own, and Jasper instinctually rubbed against it, his body hungry for friction and warmth.
Skin on skin contact was definitely one of Logan's very favorite things in the world and he let his hands slide around Jasper's waist to his back, groaning when their cocks pressed together. Flicking his tongue against Jasper's, Logan began to push him back towards his bed with his body, not really wanting to break the contact, but wanting to get Jasper on his back too so Logan could take the rest of his clothes off. It would be easy to push down his jogging pants, so he focused on Jasper instead, smirking a bit before pressing Jasper's chest. "Lay down and help me get your jeans off."
Feeling Logan’s hands on his skin was as delicious as always, and Jasper relished the way he touched him as he walked backward until he hit the edge of Logan’s bed. “So bossy.” Jasper gave him a little grin in return, hands sliding around to squeeze his ass before he sat down and scooted back. He lifted his hips and moved his legs to help Logan peel his jeans and boxers down and off, giving a little sigh of relief once he was finally naked. It always felt so nice to be bare in a lover’s bed, no matter who it was. Jasper reached down to idly play with his own cock, his other hand tucked behind his head as he watched his boyfriend with heavy-lidded eyes. “Kinda wanna fuck you,” he murmured. “Feel up to it?”
The more of Jasper's skin that was revealed, the more Logan's cock filled out. Once Jasper was completely naked, Logan shoved his own pants down and off, having gone to bed naked the night before so there were no boxer briefs to get rid of. Hearing that Jasper wanted to fuck him only intensified his arousal and he exhaled slowly to try and rein in some of that carnal urge to just cover Jasper's body with his own and devour him. "Certainly feels like I'm up to it," he said, absently stroking his cock before kneeling on the bed and leaning over Jasper so he could kiss him again. "Anything you want," he murmured in between soft bites to Jasper's lower lip.
What man didn’t enjoy hearing those words? Anything he wanted ... and Jasper knew Logan meant it, too. They’d never been about putting limits on each other, and starting up this new dimension to their relationship hadn’t changed that. Jasper might get pops of jealousy sometimes thinking about Logan fucking other guys, but he never wanted to flex authority over him that he didn’t have. He just wanted to enjoy being with him in the moment and making each other feel good. Jasper returned the kiss with a low soft sound in his throat, his hand leaving his own cock to find Logan’s and wrap around it, stroking gently while their mouths worked together for a moment. “Lie back,” he murmured eventually.
Logan sometimes wished everyone could be like Jasper. Accepting and chill and never pushing for things that would inevitably implode. There was a certain amount of understanding and trust there that Logan had never found with anyone else. But that was probably because he hadn't been friends with anyone else for as long as they'd been friends. Groaning against Jasper's mouth, Logan shifted away to lay down. He stroked his cock absently, his eyes completely focused on Jasper. It was going to be a damn shame when they had to cut this part of their relationship off, though Logan would do it willingly and with a smile if it meant his best friend was happy again. Or happier, at least. He didn't think anyone in this town could be completely free from the angst of it all.
God, he was a sight. Jasper tried to take a picture with his mind, to memorize every centimeter of Logan’s body, where his skin was flushed with arousal, the way his eyes looked. He was going to miss this just like he missed seeing Jules in this position, naked and gorgeous and ready for him. Jasper tried his best not to think of any of it ending, just that he had it now and he should take advantage of the opportunity. Eyes still mostly on his semi-boyfriend, Jasper went to pull his lube out of the bedside drawer, well familiar with where Logan kept it by now. He climbed up onto the bed and leaned over Logan, dropping the lube bottle onto his chest as he braced himself with his hands and leaned down to kiss him again. “Get my cock wet,” he murmured against his lips, rocking his hips to lightly rub their hardons together.
Smirking, Logan took the bottle of lube and flipped the cap open even as he kissed Jasper, not wanting to break the contact. His entire body felt overly warm and restless, like it knew what was coming and just couldn't wait any longer. His tongue brushed against Jasper's and when he squirted enough lube into his hand, he wrapped it around Jasper's cock, stroking and smearing it around the head. He knew he could jerk Jasper off like this if he wanted to, but better things were coming, for the both of them. Groaning, Logan bit gently into Jasper's lower lip, his fingers tightening around Jasper's cock for a moment before forcing himself to go easy. He didn't want this over before it even began.
Jasper was more than happy to kiss him back, his own tongue delving deep between Logan’s plush lips. Just his hand felt incredibly good and drew a low groan out of Jasper, his hips rocking with more hunger now. It was kind of tempting to just rut against Logan’s body until he came, but Jasper wanted more than that. They had the house to themselves and some time, and he wanted to be greedy with this while he still could. After a moment Jasper reached between them as well to take hold of his cock, shifting his position a bit to rub it between Logan’s cheeks, all that warmth practically making his head spin. They’d been doing this enough that he didn’t think Logan needed any warm up if he went slow, but he knew Logan would tell him if he did. Jasper nibbled at his lip and groaned softly as he started to ease his cock into him.
As much as Logan liked fucking people, he equally enjoyed being fucked, especially by Jasper. There was something to be said for sex with actual feelings and Jasper tended to be the only person who Logan experienced that with. With one hand gripping Jasper's hip, Logan slid the other into Jasper's hair before pressing it to the nape of his neck to keep him close so they could keep kissing. The slow pace helped and Logan had done this enough times to know what to expect and what to do to make it good for both of them. Even so, the delicious way Jasper's cock pressed into him, the sensation of fullness that it created... Logan groaned again and cursed softly against Jasper's mouth. Logan knew he was the first guy Jasper had ever done this with but damned if his friend didn't already know how to do it well. His hand slid around to grip Jasper's ass and he had to resist the urge to start jerking himself off. It was too soon. "Goddamn," he murmured again, smiling lazily before kissing Jasper again.
Logan may have been his first and only guy, but Jasper’d had plenty of experience with girls before Jules and he’d learned how to listen and take his time. When he cared about the outcome, at least -- he always wanted sex to be as good for Logan was it was for him, no matter which positions they were taking. As their mouths and tongues danced together, he worked with Logan’s body and finally got that rush of bright pleasure up his spine as their bodies fully came together. Fuck, it was such a deliciously tight fit. Jasper’s lips twitched upward at Logan’s quiet curse, but he fell right back into kissing him hungrily once their mouths met again. ‘Goddamn’ didn’t even really begin to cover it. Jasper rocked his hips very gently, not even really thrusting, just teasing the both of them and letting them get adjusted to all of that hot pressure. He let out a low groan in his throat, his tongue delving deep into Logan’s mouth.
Pressing his fingertips into Jasper's skin, Logan focused on how good his friend tasted as his body got used to that delicious full feeling. There was the carnal urge to get Jasper to move harder, to not take things slow and just fuck him brainless. But he was enjoying this way too much to rush it and who the hell knew when they would get to do it again? With a small groan, Logan reached for his cock, not quite stroking it yet, but squeezing it gently for that extra stimulation. He felt like he could just lay there for hours and kiss Jasper and he probably would have done just that if his body wasn't so goddamn greedy. His free hand smoothed itself over Jasper's body, trying to reach as much bare skin as he could.
Jasper felt where Logan’s hand strayed and he grinned faintly into the kiss. He shifted his weight onto one elbow and reached between them to grab Logan’s wrist and pull his hand away from his cock. Jasper pulled it up over his head, then snagged his other wrist to do the same. As much as he loved being touched by him, Jasper wanted to play a bit. He wanted to be fully in charge of Logan’s pleasure, drive him crazy, claim him in ways he couldn’t really do anywhere else. He held Logan’s wrists with one hand and nipped at his full bottom lip as he started to move his hips with more purpose, drawing his cock almost all the way out before pushing in deep again. “Fuck,” Jasper exhaled close to Logan’s mouth, pleasure rolling up his spine. He built into a rhythm that was still slow for the moment, but gave them both more to feel.
His hands pinned above his head was both frustrating and sexy as hell, so Logan didn't protest. It felt so damn good and he rocked his hips the best he could, groaning again as Jasper's cock delved deeper. His own cock throbbed with every brush of Jasper's body against it but Logan was willing to ignore it for the time being, his attention focused solely on Jasper. He had fucked a lot of guys over the past few years, but none of them felt this good and Logan figured it was because he and Jasper had been friends since they were kids and Logan actually cared about him. It seemed to somehow make everything feel ten times better and it was going to fucking suck when it had to stop. "Yeah," Logan breathed in between brief, but hard kisses to Jasper's mouth. "You feel so fucking good."
Jasper couldn’t think about the impending End of this at the moment, his brain was filled with static and pleasure and Logan. He hadn’t actually fucked another guy yet, but Jasper had slept with plenty of girls he hadn’t really cared about, so he had experience with how feelings enhanced sex. He had to imagine it would be the same with guys. None of them would hold a candle to Logan, just like no other girl held a candle to Jules. The blowjobs with Sage had been fun in that very casual way, but this felt like so much more. Jasper’s stomach twisted pleasantly at the praise, and he moaned against Logan’s lips. “You too,” he whispered back as his hips started to work faster. He knew Logan’s cock had to be aching for attention, but Jasper wanted to hold off until he was almost ready to beg. “I love fucking you.”
Another groan formed deep in his throat and it was getting harder to keep his eyes open. But he did it, wanting to watch Jasper above him. "I love it when you fuck me," he breathed, the faintest of smirks on his lips quickly washed away by the uncontrollable pleasure that was growing heavier inside of him. He couldn't stop his body from moving instinctively with Jasper, trying to get the right kind of friction against his cock. He wanted it as badly as he wanted Jasper to keep ahold of his wrists. Soft curses began to slip past his lips the faster Jasper's cock pushed into him and he couldn't help but think about how fucking amazing it would be to have Jules there with them. He probably shouldn't be thinking about fucking Jasper's girlfriend, but he had a feeling Jasper would enjoy it as much as Logan would. He swiped his tongue against Jasper's bottom lip and groaned again. "Goddamn... let me touch you," he demanded breathlessly, not quite pulling away from Jasper's grasp, but tugging his wrists gently enough to encourage Jasper to let go.
His grip tightened by instinct as Logan pulled, and Jasper didn’t give in right away, looking down into those beautiful eyes with a little smirk of his own. He liked hearing the urgency in Logan’s voice and feeling the tension singing in his body. Being even a little in control was such a turn on. Jasper didn’t want to tease him more than Logan wanted to be teased though, so he relented and let go, nudging their foreheads together as he rolled his spine in some deep, slow strokes. “No touching yourself though,” he purred, dragging one hand down Logan’s side. He pulled it back up and lifted his head to lick his palm and fingers, then slipped his hand between them to wrap it around Logan’s cock. “That’s my job.” He started stroking Logan in time with those slow thrusts, keeping his grip light for the moment.
As soon as his hands were free, Logan slid them down Jasper's sides though now he was completely distracted by the way Jasper licked his fingers. His cock throbbed in anticipation and as soon as he felt his friend's hand wrap around it, Logan arched his hips to push harder into Jasper's grip. "Fuck," he breathed, both thankful and frustrated by the slow pace. Logan tried to distract his body by kissing Jasper again, soft, brief and breathless kisses. His hands moved restlessly over Jasper's body and it was damn difficult not to grab Jasper's ass and force him to fuck him harder. "Driving me crazy," he muttered, but with a soft huff of a laugh that trailed off into a groan.
That was exactly what Jasper wanted to do, and the words just stoked the fire inside of him. Logan fucked a lot of people, and while Jasper could ignore his jealousy well enough, he still wanted to be the best. He wanted to be Logan’s favorite lover of any gender, to fill him with more pleasure than anyone else possibly could. That was probably fucked up and selfish, especially since he was going back to Jules, but he couldn’t help himself. Jasper’s body moved faster, pumping his cock into Logan with more force, building into a rhythm that could get them both where they wanted to be in no time. He did his best to hold back on his orgasm, wanting to stay focused on making Logan groan some more. Jasper kissed at his lips, his jaw, and nibbled on his neck as he kept stroking that delicious hard cock in his hand.
Logan gripped Jasper's lower back, soft grunts and groans escaping him with every thrust of Jasper's cock. Intense pleasure licked up his spine and all of the stimulation was proving to be Too Much in the best way possible. With his balls tight against his body, Logan arched beneath Jasper, cursing loudly as he crossed the point of no return, allowing the pleasure to overwhelm and take control. There was no way he could hold back against Jasper's skilled hand and the pump of his cock so he didn't even bother trying. Instead he came with a loud, strained moan, his hands gripping Jasper tight to keep him close.
Fuck, it was so hot, every time. Jasper kept fucking and stroking Logan through his orgasm -- he slowed down so he wouldn’t overstimulate, but squeezed tighter to wring every drop of pleasure out of him. All of the clenching and bucking made it hard to hold back his own climax, but Jasper managed, dipping his head in to lick and bite at Logan’s neck to distract himself. He wished they could stay right where they were and just fuck all night long, if he was being honest. It was so tempting to ignore any family obligations and just selfishly stay in this place with his best friend ... but Jasper knew this wasn’t the day for that. Soon, but not yet. Once Logan’s body stopped convulsing, Jasper slowed to a stop and lifted his head to kiss him again. “That sounded good,” he murmured with a tiny grin.
Logan ran his hands over Jasper's body, groaning low in his throat at the feel of his friend's tongue and lips on his skin. It was a wonder that he could open his eyes at all, but once he did he gripped Jasper's ass and squeezed, a lazy grin forming on his lips. "That's 'cause it felt good," he murmured. It was instinctual to lift his hips, wanting to feel Jasper's cock deeper inside of him. He might have already come, but Logan was still feeling amorous. He nipped at Jasper's chin and then his lower lip. "Your cock feels so fucking good in my ass."
The words made Jasper moan, nibbling back at Logan’s lips. He rolled his spine, getting a few long slow strokes in as he relished his lover’s mouth. “Your ass is goddamn amazing,” he mumbled. Logan was the only guy Jasper had ever fucked, and really the only one he had any desire to fuck so far, but he couldn’t imagine anyone feeling better than this. He was going to miss it ... whenever he was able to focus on anything but pleasure, anyway. His breath hitching, he started to thrust faster again, that sweet tension in his core twisting tighter and tighter. As much as Jasper wanted to fuck Logan for hours, his body definitely had other ideas and he knew it wouldn’t take him long to get there.
Logan gripped Jasper's sides and groaned, more than fine with letting Jasper do whatever he needed to get there. It still felt amazing to Logan and he was ready to ride it for as long as it took. They were both breathing pretty heavily but Logan still took his time to kiss him in between gasps for breath. There was honestly nothing like completely losing himself in this kind of pleasure, letting it wipe out any and all thought from his brain. They didn't need to think about what came after all of this, or how things might change. All Logan knew was that he was going to take advantage of his time with Jasper as much as he could, while he could.
All of the touching and the kissing and the way Logan still seemed soaked in pleasure only enhanced everything for Jasper. He was lost in it just as much as Logan was, his brain full of nothing but static and intense pleasure. It rose and rose inside of him until he couldn’t hold back anymore, and he grunted and groaned as he pounded into Logan for the last few wild thrusts. Then everything tensed and hummed in the sweetest way, his cock throbbing deliciously as he let go inside his best friend. Jasper basked in those few mindless moments, moaning as his hips kept rocking slowly and he gave a few little shivers until his body finally stilled. He gently stroked the side of Logan’s neck with his fingertips and pressed his lips softly to Logan’s again. “I don’t want to give you up,” he murmured after a moment. “You know that, right?”
Fuck, it felt good. All of it. Logan had always enjoyed sex for what it was - pleasure in its simplest form. He didn't need attachments or emotion involved in it for it to be good. But he had to admit that those things certainly enhanced the experience. Or maybe it was just Jasper. His heart was still beating madly in his chest when Jasper spoke and Logan opened his eyes, a faint smile forming on his lips. "Yeah, I know that. I don't want to give you up either." But he couldn't really tell Jasper what to do. He didn't want to tell Jasper what to do. Logan knew the stuff with Jules was complicated and it didn't feel right getting involved.
Jasper knew that Jules would never tell him he couldn’t see Logan as a friend anymore -- at least he hoped she would never try, because that wasn’t going to fly at all -- but things would have to shift again. It was going to be hard to go back. He loved them both. But if Jules needed him to be monogamous, that was what he would do to keep her. He would try, at least, because she deserved his genuine effort. If Jasper hadn’t felt so secure that Logan wouldn’t abandon him once they stopped fooling around, he might not have been able to even try, but he knew his best friend wasn’t going anywhere, and that was the role he needed Logan in the most. He sighed a bit and nuzzled their cheeks together, just wanting to hold on and be close for a little while. “Maybe she’ll like, relax eventually and give me a threesome for my birthday or something,” he murmured after a moment, giving a little huff.
Logan grinned lazily at the thought. “That’d be a pretty damn good birthday present. Have you guys talked about any of this? I know I’m like the last person to be giving you advice on this stuff, but…” He trailed off for a moment, aware of how weirdly vulnerable they both were right then, naked and still joined together. Talking about Jules might not be the best topic of conversation. But he’d already started and he was Jasper’s best friend. Logan had always been honest with him. “I dunno. I feel like you oughta be honest with her and tell her how you feel about stuff. I know you love her so I don’t want shit to unravel for you guys.”
Being honest was harder than it sounded when it came to the kind of complicated emotions Jasper had about both of them. He didn’t want to hurt Jules, and he knew he already had. “I love you both,” he muttered, nudging his face against Logan’s cheek. Eye contact felt difficult at the moment. “Just ... different.” He wished he could just beam understanding of it all straight into Jules’s brain, because he obviously sucked at explaining it out loud. Maybe it wouldn’t matter even if she did fully get it, maybe she just couldn’t share him. Working all of that out would require talking, Logan was right about that. “We’re going to talk, once she’s out of the hospital and feeling better. That’s what we said,” he went on, so Logan wouldn’t think he was dodging it all completely. “Bet your ears’ll be burning.”
"Yeah, I know." He knew it was different. Most love was. Logan was pretty sure that no one loved another person exactly the same. He also knew that not everyone viewed relationships and sex the way he did. Logan certainly didn't judge them for it. But it added complications that he generally tried to avoid. "My ears are always burning. People love talking about my sexy ass," Logan teased. Bringing his hands up to run them over Jasper's short hair, he cocked a brow. "Things might work out, you know. Maybe things'll be better for you guys... and maybe us. I don't know."
Jasper had to grin over Logan’s sexy ass comment, because he really couldn’t deny that ... but it was a short lived smile. He lifted his head to look into Logan’s eyes again. “Better for us, if we’re not doing this anymore?” he murmured. He definitely wanted things to be better with Jules, because he kind of had a constant stomach ache about her, but did Logan think taking a step back from their newfound physical relationship would be an improvement for them? Jasper’s cock had gone soft and would’ve slipped out if they weren’t pressed so close together, and maybe he was just feeling particularly tender and vulnerable, but the idea of pulling away made him a little sad.
Logan's brows drew together in brief confusion before he shook his head. "No, I mean... no." Shit. He was really bad at this stuff. Which was part of the reason why he never did it. Logan grimaced. "I meant like... maybe she'd understand... about this. And you wouldn't have to pick... or whatever. I'm not making any sense." He knew how girls could be about monogamy and he was pretty sure Jasper wouldn't want Jules sleeping with other dudes. But Logan was just thinking selfishly, hoping things would work out so they wouldn't have to stop doing this.
Jasper murmured a soft “oh” and then gave a scoff. “Yes you are.” A little embarrassed at his misunderstanding, he dropped his face to nuzzle Logan’s neck again. “Sorry, my mind just ... jumps to the worst thing,” he mumbled. “Maybe you’re right, maybe she’ll come around.” Jasper couldn’t expect her to, of course, but he could hold out some hope that Jules’s feelings about it all would evolve. Even more than that he hoped she would feel secure with him again eventually. Jasper slid his arms underneath Logan to hug him tight for a moment, then started to pull back so they could get up and get clean. “It’s not happening yet, so ... let’s enjoy the time we got.”
The small miscommunication seemed to smooth over rather quickly and Logan exhaled with a small smile. "Yeah, maybe she will." People could be unpredictable sometimes, right? As soon as Jasper began to pull back, Logan stretched a bit and sat up. "What time is your dad's thing again?" He was sure Jasper probably mentioned it but Logan was still kind of head fuzzy from the sex. Maybe they had time to shower together and mess around again before they were surrounded by Jasper's family and they had to behave.
“Uh ... like now, I think?” Jasper suggested as he climbed off the bed. He crouched to rummage around in his clothes until he found his phone and checked the time. “Well, soon. But we can be late. It’s a casual thing, you know my dad.” Gavin didn’t like anybody making a big deal about him for any reason, so this birthday party had been a bit of a surprise to hear about. Jasper thought Charlie really must love him, which was kind of weird but good. Subconsciously following Logan’s train of thought, Jasper looked up and cocked a brow at him. “You wanna shower?”
Logan knew Jasper's family was pretty laid back so he wasn't worried about being "late" or anything. Knowing Jasper's dad, it'd probably be like every other Lucas get together. Eat, drink, small talk and go home. But Logan was game for any situation where he got free food. He grinned at Jasper. "Yeah, I wanna shower. With you, obviously. I wanna see if I can get you off again before we have to go hang out with your hot family."
God, that smile was criminally hot. Jasper had just fucked Logan and he still got a tingle deep in his stomach at the suggestion. He couldn’t help but grin back. “I have full faith that you can do whatever you set your mind to,” he said as he stood up. Jasper had no doubts that they could both get off again in that shower. Maybe it would help Logan not drool so much over his entire family, but ... probably not. He’d been doing it for years, Jasper just thought it was funny at this point. He offered his hand to help his boyfriend up off the bed, holding onto his fingers as they headed for Logan’s bathroom.