Re: Sebastian and Jules
Even if she and Jasper didn't last forever, Jules didn't think she would ever regret it. She knew what they had meant something, which was probably why it sucked so much to think about the possibility of them not lasting beyond high school. Talking about college also kind of sucked, but she got comfortable beside Sebastian, letting the weed settle in pleasantly. "I actually have applications done to like... four places. I just have to finish a couple parts and mail them. Um... Indiana Wes...Wesleyan." She could barely get it out without giggling. "University of Kentucky, University of Maine and...California State University in Long Beach. That was kind of like, my first choice, but it's so far. And I don't know if I'm going to actually send the application. U of Maine is like... an hour and a half from home, so..." Jules sighed and handed Bash the joint again. "What about you?"
Sebastian knew that some of his attitude had to do with where he was right now, fresh off a broken heart and bitter about the choices that led him there. Once happy memories now depressed him, and it was easy to think he’d be better without them, but he knew that wasn’t really the case. They were just hard to hold at the moment, too bittersweet for him to swallow until he got farther from them. A rebound seemed like a good idea, someone to remind him that there were other people out there, even if they didn’t amount to anything. There would be even more people at college, he told himself. A whole new pool with hopefully more guys of his persuasion. “University of Maine, UCLA, and Stanford for my dad. I also put in at University of Miami, but it’ll be a fight if I want to go there.” His grades were good, better than most people thought, and he could probably get into all of them, including Stanford if his dad pulled strings. “You wanna be close to home? I definitely pictured you some place like California. Or New York. I could see you going all Sex in the City on us,” he grinned.
Of course Sebastian would apply to Standford and UCLA. He was super smart and she was sure his parents pushed him towards the best schools. Jules wasn't entirely sure what her mom's dreams were for her, but she doubted Margaret Cooper cared where Jules went to college as long as she went and found a suitable guy to marry there. The weed and alcohol was starting to really kick in and everything felt a bit floaty and fun. "I don't really want to stay close to him, but... I mean, Maine is only like, an hour and a half away. So if Jasper stays here..." Jules trailed off, flexing her fingers a bit. "I mean, he says he'll go with me, but I don't know. And I don't know if he'll want to leave his family. I said if he didn't come with me, I'd stay, but..." Jules exhaled and then smiled. "Who knows. We'll see if anyone accepts me first."
It was hard to hear her talking about a future with Jasper and not tell her to be careful, that making plans dependent on him was a bad idea, but Sebastian kept his mouth shut. He couldn’t think of two people more different than Jasper and Hunter. Maybe he would be good to his word. Maybe his feelings would hold. Sebastian wanted to believe that his experience with love wasn’t the norm, but it was still too soon and the burn was too fresh. “I’m sure you’ll get into University of Maine. You’ve got all the extracurriculars to help you if your GPAs not the best. And… and you should go. Even if just for a year. See what it’s like. If he doesn’t come and you want to come home, you can at least say you tried,” he said, then paused as he took another hit off the joint before passing it back to her. “He’s not really what I’d have pictured you with, but you sound serious, him coming with you and all. I hope it works out.”