Makayla Richberg (makknows) wrote in shadows_rpg, @ 2018-11-29 14:41:00 |
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Entry tags: | #november 2017, mak, mak x sabrina, sabrina |
Who: Sabrina and Mak
When: After school, Wednesday, November 22nd
Where: Mak’s house
Status: Complete
With the early dismissal from school for Thanksgiving, Sabrina had some time to kill before her shift that night at The Boathouse. Given she wouldn’t be seeing her mom until Saturday, Sabrina had volunteered for work the dinner shift on Thanksgiving itself for the extra cash since she doubted she and her dad would be having any kind of fancy dinner for the holiday. The last thing Sabrina wanted to do was hang out all weekend alone in her room, so work seemed like the next best option.
After going home to dump her stuff off in her room and change, Sabrina left the apartment and headed in the direction of Mak’s house, pulling out her phone to send a quick text, just in case. They hadn’t made plans or anything, but Sabrina didn’t want to just show up at Mak’s door uninvited. She knew things had been a little ‘weird’ since the dance and bonfire, and it hadn’t helped that they had been both distracted by work and school stuff since. They had a long weekend ahead of them, so maybe hanging out a bit would help.
hey. Busy? Might come over if you want company? Might come over was really ‘on my way over’, but Sabrina wanted to give Mak the opportunity to say no if she didn’t feel up to it.
Mak was glad that they had a long weekend. She’d been in low spirits since the dance and the bonfire, kind of mopey and avoiding people and extra tried. The conversation with Sabrina had really sunk in, and given that this was the first relationship Mak considered really real, she wasn't sure how not to feel down about its inevitable end. Sabrina said they could still have fun together until graduation, but ... it all felt tainted. Mak hadn’t had any real solid plans on how they would stay together, but she still wanted to. Like maybe Sabrina could move with her when she went to college, they could get an apartment or ... something. That didn’t seem in the cards, though.
Once school had let out, she’d gone straight home, changed, and flopped in her room, just contemplating the ceiling for a while before she played something mindless and distracting on the Xbox. Sabrina’s text startled her a little, and Mak hated that she had the impulse to say no. But if she hermited too much, Sabrina would realize something was wrong and they would have to Talk about it and ugh. just at home, come on by she texted back. Mak saved her game and shuffled her way downstairs to catch the door before her mom did whenever Sabrina showed up.
Sabrina felt a small bit of relief at Mak's response. She didn't really think Mak would have said no, but... okay, maybe there had been an underlying fear that she would. She listened to music through her ear buds for the rest of the way, but took them out and wrapped them up to shove into her coat pocket when she finally reached Mak's door. It was getting colder outside and Sabrina knew she would have to start really bundling up if she had any hopes of getting anywhere in town this winter. She already kind of regretted not bringing her scarf this time. Sabrina knocked on the door and stepped back, rocking lightly on her heels as she waited.
Mak got up from the couch near the front door and went to open it up, giving Sabrina a little smile when she did so. She moved back so the other girl could come in, the air feeling frosty against her bare arms. Mak had only put on a tank top and some flannel pj pants when she’d gotten home, and she was dimly glad that Sabrina had made the trek over instead of her. “Hey,” she greeted once she had the door closed and locked again. Mak leaned over and kissed her girlfriend’s cheek. Which was naturally cold as hell, so Mak hugged her and rubbed at her arms. “Ugh, you’re freezing, come on upstairs.”
Sabrina followed Mak upstairs, already feeling warmer now that she was inside. "If I can't afford a car soon, I may have to buy one of those scooter things to get around. It'll still be cold but at least my feet won't be freezing." At least she was trekking mud or anything through Mak's house. "What're you up to?" Mak looked comfortable, so it didn't seem like she had plans to go out or anything, and if Hunter was hanging out here, she probably would have told Sabrina over text.
“Do those work okay in snow?” Mak wondered out loud with a little nose-wrinkle. She wouldn’t think so, since they were electric and all, but what did she know? Sabrina would look cute puttering around on a scooter though, she did know that. A car would be way more practical though, so Mak had her mental fingers crossed for her. Mak led them to her room and shut the door behind them, then gave her girlfriend a shrug. “Just playing video games, pretty much.” She flopped onto her bed and moved the controller out of the way. “What about you? No work today?”
"Probably not, but if the roads and sidewalks are shoveled and salted, it can't be too bad, right?" Sabrina shrugged out of her coat and set it off to the side before sitting down beside Mak on her bed. She had never been very good at video games, although she enjoyed playing them from time to time. "I work tonight," she said. "But I wanted to come see you first. I kind of feel like things are... weird. Which is probably because of me, but I figured we should... talk about it." She winced, as she wasn't very good at any of this and the last thing she wanted to do was stick her foot in her mouth and make things worse.
Mak’s brow furrowed and she kept her eyes down on the bedspread for a moment. Things did feel weird, but she didn’t think it was Sabrina, she was pretty sure it was her. Sabrina thought they could just hang out and have fun until they parted ways, and Mak had gone and caught stupid feelings, so it was her own fault she felt so mopey. “I dunno ... I mean, we don’t have to talk about it,” she muttered, giving Sabrina a quick glance. Mak knew it wasn’t fair to pout, but she couldn’t help but feel shitty that her girlfriend didn’t see any kind of future for them at all. What else was there to say?
"So then we don't talk about it, and things get weirder," Sabrina pointed out. She could tell something was wrong, and while she had a feeling she knew what it was, she didn't want to start rambling nonsense until she knew what Mak was thinking. "If something is wrong can we just talk about it? I don't really want to pretend things are fine if they're not, you know?" She so didn't want to fight or anything, but she wanted things to be okay between she and Mak, and if Sabrina messed up somewhere, she wanted to try and fix it.
Things were going to get weirder anyway and they were going to be pretending things were fine until they finally parted ways anyway, so Mak didn’t know what there really was to talk about. And it wasn’t like Sabrina was super forthcoming when things were wrong, so why did she have to be? She knew that wasn’t fair though. She sighed and rubbed at one eye, scooting around until she was stretched out on her side on the bed, her head propped up with one hand, hugging a pillow to her chest. “I just feel like ... I dunno, like we’re just waiting to break up now,” she said finally, fidgeting with the edge seam of the pillow. “And like you’re just ... fine with that.”
Brows drawn together in confusion, Sabrina watched Mak as she tried to figure out how Mak came to that conclusion. Then she remembered what she had said at the dance, and she supposed Mak had every right to think that way. "I'm not fine with it," Sabrina said, willing herself to be patient and not defensive. "And I don't think we're just waiting to break up. I'm just... I don't want to plan ahead and assume everything is going to work out. That doesn't mean I'm fine with it if we break up. I don't want to break up." Honestly she wished she could be a super optimistic person, that she could look at the bright side of everything, but that just wasn't who she was. The odds weren't in their favor, but that didn't mean there wasn't a chance for them at all.
Mak was aware that something weird had happened at the dance, to a lot of people. She’d talked to Hunter about it, about how Bash had just come out like it wasn’t a big deal. And she remembered feeling overly good and like not much could get her down. The little conversation they’d had had tripped her up some, but it had seemed easy at the time to put it out of her mind. Not so much anymore. It was good to hear that Sabrina didn’t want to break up and not as cavalier about it as she’d sounded that night. It didn’t make her feel all the way better though. “So it’s better to assume it won’t work out?” she asked, her brow furrowing some more. “Because you sounded pretty like, sure. That it won’t. So we should just forget about anything after graduation.”
"I don't know." Sabrina sighed, not sure as how to explain things without making it worse, because she was pretty good at that. "I don't want to assume it won't work out, but I just... I can't assume it will. And graduation feels so far away right now. I only know that, two things right now. One is that you're going to go to college, and I'm not. Even if I do, it won't be the same one you'll get into. The other thing is that I really like you and I'm willing to see what happens in the next few months. I just don't see why we have to think so far ahead right now."
Mak’s expression softened a bit when Sabrina told her she really liked her. On one hand, kinda duh, but on the other ... she’d been thinking herself in circles and had gotten kind of convinced that this was all way more casual to Sabrina than it was to her, feelings-wise. Now it sounded more like she was willing to wait and see than it had sounded at the dance. She twisted her lips to the side and picked at the bedspread under her fingers. “We don’t,” she murmured after a moment. “And I didn’t mean to. It just ... I dunno, it just popped out of my mouth on Saturday, like what was happening to a bunch of people. I didn’t mean to pressure you or anything. I just really like you too and feel like we’re just getting started, y’know? I don’t wanna give up on figuring something out eventually, if we’re still ... there.”
Sabrina nodded, because she was fine with waiting to see what happened, rather than trying to make plans that might not ever come to fruition. It felt silly to assume certain things would happen, when life clearly didn't care what anyone wanted. It was going to do whatever it wanted to do. "If we're still there, we'll figure something out," Sabrina promised. "I just... get nervous trying to think ahead in this town. I mean, Hunter was possessed by a freaking demon, you know? Anything can happen here. Sometimes the last thing I start to worry about is graduation, as weird as that sounds."
Those were all good points, of course, and Mak started to feel guilty for making such a big deal out of it all, even though she’d kept it mostly to herself. She guessed she shouldn’t have taken it so personally. “It doesn’t sound weird,” she said quietly. “It sounds smart.” Maybe she shouldn’t be planning for a future at all. Maybe she wouldn’t even be alive to graduate. Maybe none of them would. It felt like a big black hole just opening up underneath her, further and further, and Mak kind of wanted to cry and kind of hated herself for that feeling at the same time. She lifted her arm out to Sabrina, wanting her girlfriend closer, and murmured a little ‘c’mere.’
Sabrina knew she wasn't the most comforting person, or the most optimistic. She was fairly certain she was probably a pretty terrible girlfriend too, but she hadn't been lying when she told Jade she wasn't sure she was cut out to be anything. Sabrina didn't want to disappoint Mak, or hurt her, and she would try really hard not to do it again before... well, whatever happened. She scooted in close to Mak and rested her head on her shoulder, one arm slipping around her. "I'm sorry," she murmured. "Sometimes I think I should just stop talking."
Mak draped her arm around Sabrina and moved in even closer, so as much of them was touching as possible. It was probably stupid to take comfort from that simple physical contact, but she did. Sometimes bodies were better communicators than mouths, and she hoped that Sabrina could feel a bit of how much Mak wanted to be with her. “Well, you’re wrong when you think that,” she murmured back, moving to kiss the side of Sabrina’s face. “I always wanna hear what you really think ... even when I don’t really want to hear it, you know?” She hoped that made sense. “I want to be with, like, all of you. I just really wish stuff was better. Everything everywhere.”
Mak was probably the only person in her life who would say something like that, and mean it. Sabrina's mouth tended to get her in trouble everywhere else, so she was thankful Mak hadn't decided to write her off or anything. Her lips quirked a bit and she nodded. "I want to be with you too. And stuff will get better," she said, even if she wasn't sure she meant that. "I don't know when, but it will. And like, we have a long weekend now, right? We should make plans to do some fun stuff. After Thanksgiving, obviously, 'cause I'm guessing you've got a lot of family stuff tomorrow?"
Stuff would get better. Mak had to believe that, even if that optimism felt on shakier and shakier ground lately. She had her girlfriend to cling to for as long as they lasted, and her best friend, and hopefully there would be no more demon involvement with either one of them. Or anything else bad and supernatural, for that matter. She felt so stupid, being interested in all that kind of thing for so long, only to hate it when it touched her life. “Yeah,” she sighed. “Gotta go see the grandparents and everything. I’ll probably be bored-texting you the whole time.” Mak smiled a little. She loved her family, but sometimes they could be so tiresome. “We can totally hang out Friday and Saturday though. If you’re not working.”
"Oh god, please bored text me," Sabrina said, her smile widening. "I'll be bored texting you like crazy. I go see my mom on Saturday and I only work Friday's lunch rush, but I'll have Friday night and like, Sunday to hang out when I get home. But tomorrow is going to be dull as hell, so text me all you want." She wasn't even sure her dad would be home. Well, if the bars would closed he would be. Fun! "Want to go see a movie Friday night? Maybe get dinner at Moxie's after? We could like, do a real date type thing."
It was so simple and dumb, but making Sabrina smile like that made Mak feel better about everything. She grinned back. “A real date type thing? Sounds fake, but okay,” she teased, giving her girl a squeeze. They probably needed that: a night out together, doing normal teenage things. Having fun, like Sabrina suggested they needed to do. Hopefully nothing weird would happen and they could just relax. “But yeah, totally we can. Does that mean you’re not having dinner anywhere, though? I would totally drag you along to my grandparents’ place, but I wouldn’t wanna put you through that.” Mak wrinkled her nose. “I’ll totally bring you leftovers though.”
"No, no, a real date, not the fake kind." Sabrina grinned and straightened a bit so she could look at Mak properly. It sucked that she had to work later, otherwise she might have just invited herself to stay all night. She shrugged at Mak's question but didn't look too put out by not having anywhere to go for Thanksgiving. She would get to see her mom on Saturday and she knew her mom would have plenty of food for her. "We'll probably order take out," she admitted. "Which is totally fine. Seems silly to make a bunch of food for two people. I won't say no to pie though, if you want to save me some."
Having grown up immersed in a super-loving family that made a big deal out of holidays, Mak winced a little at the idea of ordering takeout on Thanksgiving. Though her own parents did that for Christmas usually, since they were Jewish, and that probably bothered other people. To each their own, Mak supposed. She grinned a little and nodded. “Pie it is,” she agreed. “She usually makes like, three of them, so there’ll be plenty left over.” Mak made a mental note to make sure she complained plenty in those bored-texts, so Sabrina didn’t feel like she was missing out or something. “If it’s a real date though, are you gonna bring me flowers and all?” she teased, grinning again.
"Can you buy flowers in the winter?" Sabrina asked, nose wrinkling a bit in thought. They were probably more expensive, but that was okay. Did flowers ever go on sale? Funny how Sabrina knew nothing about that kind of stuff. She had never had anyone buy her flowers, and she sure as heck and never bought any herself. "I'll totally get you flowers if you want flowers. It'll be super cute and embarrassing." She nudged Mak playfully with her shoulder. The next day or so would suck, because she'd be stuck at home while all her friends were doing holiday things, but at least she had something to look forward to.
Mak didn’t honestly want flowers, though she would probably be giggly and girly and stupid about it if Sabrina ever did bring her some, so she laughed and shook her head. Nobody had ever gotten her flowers as a romantic gesture before either. “As much as I like cute and embarrassing, don’t worry about it,” Mak told her, grinning and nudging Sabrina back. Then she leaned in close again to kiss her cheek and nuzzle her a little. She smelled really nice. “M’really glad you came over,” Mak murmured.
"Me too," Sabrina said, feeling relief that it things seemed to be sorta normal again with Mak. She hadn't wanted to go into Thanksgiving break with things feeling weird between them. She reached for Mak's hand and turned her face to press a kiss against Mak's lips. "I wish I didn't have to work so we could just hang out all night." And make out. But maybe they could do that during their movie or something. "But I'll bored text you at work, if that's okay."
She gave a little sympathetic whine that turned into a soft hum as she kissed Sabrina again, a little longer this time. “I wish you didn’t either,” Mak murmured. “You can text me at like, any time, day or night, though. I’ll just be here wasting time tonight anyway.” She might wander down to watch some TV with her parents or something, but her phone was always on her. She snuggled in a bit closer and smiled faintly. “You’re here now, though, so ... how much time do you have ‘til you gotta go? I can probably borrow the car to give you a ride in if you want.”
"Four to close," Sabrina said, wrinkling her nose. "I've got to go back home and change into my uniform though. I'll be fine." There was a lot of walking in her future, but she didn't want to ask Mak to drive her around town like a loser. "I've got a bit of time though if you want to hang out. I can... play video games with you," she said, motioning to the television with a grin. "Or you can teach me how to play video games anyway." They had played for awhile at Sebastian's "party" awhile ago, but Sabrina hadn't been any good at it then either. But it gave her something to do with Mak, and that's all that mattered.
It was cold out, and that made Mak want to insist, but she knew Sabrina would probably be stubborn about it. And it wasn't like Mak had her own car to just drive her girlfriend around all winter like she might want to. Maybe she would be able to talk her parents into it soon -- it was her senior year, for fuck’s sake, and it was almost halfway over. She gave an affectionate little laugh at Sabrina’s suggestion, glancing toward the screen that was still on herself. “We could do that,” she agreed, then glanced back at Sabrina with a wicked little grin. “Or we could do more of this?” Mak kissed her again, but light and gentle, just in case Sabrina didn’t want to make out.
"We can totally do more of that," Sabrina said with a grin before leaning in to kiss her again. She wasn't going to say no to making out with her girlfriend, even if she had to leave soon, which would totally suck. And maybe things would definitely be better between them and they could just pretend like the dance and everything that was said during it had never happened. Sometimes ignoring reality was better than anything else, and Sabrina was more than happy to do that right now.