Clarice Fong | Blink (The Gifted) (andyoumissit) wrote in saveatlantisic, @ 2018-06-07 15:18:00 |
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Found this thing in my room. Real leather I think? Feels different than fake one anyway. So yeah why not, for ages I couldn't put my thoughts down anywhere for obvious reasons, might be cool to do it now. Unless this place decides to take it away and give it to someone else to read. If you're reading this: how dare you? Just kidding I don't give a damn. I think.
I'm not going hiking for God's sake.
Anyone who says normalcy/being normal is overrated has never been on the run for being "a freak" in the eyes of pretty much everyone and the law. It gets to be mind boggling how different life is when you're "normal". Or when everything/one around you is as freaky as you are, I guess. I can't remember the last time I enjoyed a proper Sunday as normal people do, chilling out before a long ass work week, writing this on my bed while my dog drools on my back cause he thought it would be a cool pillow or something. When I know that John's okay, Lauren's okay and being a normal kid again, Lorna's not spending her whole pregnancy with too much stress on her on top of the stress of growing a whole person. When I know that a lot of these people would have my back. It's somehow even stranger than going to friggin space with the Potters and a Charmed Adjacent One.I'm gonna nap. Cause I can.
I had a dream. In it I was in a living room I think, there was a movie on the TV off to the left cbut i can't remember what it was. He was sitting on the couch,long legs sprawled out because, well, they're long. I was sitting on the floor to his right, kinda resting my back on the couch cushions. It was super dark, just the TV to light us up but it was fine. At some point I put my arm on the cushion behind my head, angled his way with my palm up. Deep down I wanted him to notice and take it but that wasn't exactly the main purpose, I think i was just resting my head. But he did take my hand, wrapped his around mine tighter and tighter and we couldn't physically entwine our fingers together but it felt like we were.I should have felt shy and awkward but i felt at ease instead. We started joking around, really having fun. I can't remember anything from the movie but we were riffing on it. At some point I felt bold and laid my head down on the cushion. Looked up at him upside down for the longest time and didn't feel stupid about it or anything. It was like looking at something I can't explain, the source of everything good and peaceful. And then he kissed me, spiderman style and I felt this radiating warmth from my chest outward. Suddenly I was up on the couch on my knees, we were still kissing, but it was nothing sexual it was just...warm. Peaceful. Like every second we were kissing and he had my hand tightly in his I was begging him to never let me go and he was promising me he wouldn't. That's all I felt. Safe and wanted. And then I guess I woke up.
Dreamer isn't here to do this to me this time, so this is all me. And that is just the saddest thing in the world, twice over. I almost wish she was behind this again.
Spent the day trying to avoid even seeing him at a distance. I need to get over this.
I wonder if I really could let the great Charles Xavier mess around in my mind just enough that it wouldn't be like this.
hot ride in my air ballooooon skipping fast right around the moooooooon[later addendum]
...This is fucking weird.
Emily is cool. I hope nothing weird happens and I do get to go to a pool party. Or beach party. Whatever. Now, if only the Lola guy replies and lets me sit in his sweet ride for the drive-in, this day is golden.
No drive-in.
One of these days I'm going to kick as much ass as John, I've decided. Okay almost as much. Nowhere near as much but dammit I'll try.
may or may not be drunk oops also lauen is drunk TOo oopsx2 :<
atlantis has got to have magic hangover cures i do not deserve this
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Lauren and John went on mission to the friggin magic school bus. I can't decide if that's cooler than space or not. In any case I'll keep my indignation.
a) What the fuck and also fuck this flower shit
b) John Constantine is kinda sexy. Kinda cool too. And looks nothing like Keanu Reeves which I can't tell is better or worse. Still sexy.
c) Only you can stop forest fires in your throat by not smoking ffs
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All these kissing booths and
Nevermind that thought. That was fun. Lots of cute people around here, I've discovered. I kissed Lexi, though, for like a second. Everything I could've imagined. And I don't really know who Ray Palmer is but he's adorable. Also that King dude makes me swoon like an idiot.
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I don't know how I got the skateboard, I don't know how to do yoga, I can't believe people saw me do this crap, please God stop being a bitch to me.
I'm keeping the skateboard.
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