1. The levels of my not wanting to go home are beyond imagining. Some things are worse than death. 2. In my defense COS offered future me power in a possible future which happened after the one person here who actually treats me like a person was killed. So, y'know, don't blame me for his admittedly entirely logical under the circumstances choice 3. Liv has been here foreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeever and she's not dead. Neither is Bonnie and she's a terrible person.