No, space isn't easy either. We're getting a taste of that now.
Taking care of people like that is an enormous responsibility, which means it's all the more difficult to lose someone. I get it. Riley and I were supposed to look out for each other, protect each other. I remember, when he died, all I could do was watch. Couldn't stop it, couldn't save him. Took a long time to stop feeling guilty about that. And even now, that comes and goes.
I'm sorry about your father, and about what you and your friends went through on Tarsus IV.