Hope / Regulus Spirits and sages, fine. Although I doubt I have much of an answer. I hate being here, but I don't want to go home. This notion of 'second chances', of my somehow "fighting back" or-- being a good person or whatever Nymphadora called me when she met me, it's all rubbish. I never met her, purposefully. I refused her mother's letters, and felt content for having done so. All these people - your family, partially - being so welcome and opening and it's just-- it's infuriating. Do you know what I saw? What I participated in?
I don't know what to do with being here, where everyone's kind and loud and well-meaning. I'm angry, I suppose, at it being the obvious choice because I also have no interest in going home to die. Being atrocious to Remus Lupin and being reprimanded for it was familiar territory, although never for that reason.