Well, I don't regret it. I adapted to the idea when she was even still pregnant with you, honestly. I didn't realize until we'd lost you.
Look, I'm not going to give you a sob story about how it sucks to be me, because it doesn't. I'm fabulous. Fillory was something new. Fen is amazing - I'm terrible husband material for someone like her. But I needed that world probably even more than it needed me. I wasn't doing great back home, things happened that made my life a living hell and I got to start over. I might've been a shit the first few months, but I don't regret it now.