*lets out a quiet breath, and sits down next to her*
I could say it wasn't wholly your fault -- that you were corrupted by as wicked a power as I've ever seen or heard of, as bad as the bitch in Cloud's head, that she's got a way of making your desires overwhelm your good sense, and then making your desires into her desires. I could say that you did well to stay sane as long as you did, and that part of it's my fault, for not seeing it sooner and containing you.
But I'd wager none of that's going to help right now. So I'll say this, instead.
You have your mind back, your life and sanity back. That gift was given you freely and without obligation. Why squander it, when you could use it well instead?