... [And is standing by your chair and reaching up and just...grabbing your cheeks and staring you straight in the eyes because, damn it, YOU WILL UNDERSTAND THIS.]
I have nothing to go back to, Chrono. Not really. I could disappear from my world and it'd probably take Danny a long time to realize I was never coming back. There is no home to return to, no place to really be happy. There's too many problems with just me existing and nothing solid that really proves I even exist there. That's why, in all honesty, Sabra La Tau is my home. This place that can be so horrible is my home. Not because I have a place to be though. But because there are people here....people here who are important to me.
It's those people who give me a home. Who give me happiness. Who...who actually give some meaning to why I'm alive. It's important to keep breathing, but there is something else that's just as important and that's finding something to make your life something you're happy with. And for me, that's having people I love. People who can give me a home. Even if it's not a house or a world, just some place I can feel like my existence is something acknowledged.
And I want to protect them. Not just because they're important, but because for me to truly 'live,' I need to have those people around. That's why I will always protect them, but I will also always fight to protect my own life. But it's more than just that. I also want to help them. I want to be there for them. I want them to feel like that they don't have to be alone, that there is someone around who will just be happy that they're alive, people who will notice if their existence disappears. I want to be there for their happy times, their sad times, their easy times, and hard times. I want to be protected, but I also want to help protect them too because that's what family should do.
[And at this point, the tears are rolling down her cheeks.] I want to share their burdens, because taking on burdens all alone hurts. It hurts and it's so lonely and no one should have to go through that. I don't want to be protected from helping them with their burdens because they don't want me to have burdens. What's the point of not having any burdens in your life if there's no one around to be with you? I'd take on all the burdens in the world, as long as I didn't have to be alone.
So...please understand Chrono, that I want to share your burdens with you. I want to help you carry them and I want to support you like you're supported me. Because protecting your life, helping you carry your burdens, also makes the life I fought so hard for worth living.