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Tweak says, "Daddy I Want A Golden Moose"

Spark (Hizumi Mizushiro) (devilishfiend) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-12-05 01:26:00

Entry tags:

!days 290-299, dean winchester, fay d. flourite, hizumi mizushiro, lelouch lamperouge, rokujou miharu, rory pond, tazendra, uchiha itachi, yoi-te

Who: Lyvus and visitors
Where: Lyvress
When: Day 295, post-game
What: after game cuddlepile

[Four revived-but-not-completely-healed Corvi and a bitten-but-not-bleeding survived Lynx coming back from the Arena. Everything is terrible and everything hurts, but at least we got memories.]

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	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 09:28 am UTC (link)
	[squeezes his eyes shut, wincing] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:30 am UTC (link)
	[lightly] Come here . . .? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 09:32 am UTC (link)
	[shifts closer...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:35 am UTC (link)
	[holds a hand out to him, palm up] I won't bite. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 09:40 am UTC (link)
	[takes his hand...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:45 am UTC (link)
	[squeezes it] I'm very grateful to have met you, and wouldn't ever want to lose you. I'm sure Miharu feels the same. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 09:46 am UTC (link)
	That's... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:53 am UTC (link)
	. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 09:56 am UTC (link)
	I want to lose me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:57 am UTC (link)
	So you have a choice to make. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 03:44 pm UTC (link)
	[...nods...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-05 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	. . . I'm proud of you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-05 10:52 pm UTC (link)
	[h-horrified. Shakes his head] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-06 12:09 am UTC (link)
	Haha . . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-06 01:25 am UTC (link)
	[shakes it again...] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-06 06:59 am UTC (link)
	I mean it. You're willing to deal with some really significant issues. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-06 07:01 am UTC (link)
	I don't... want... to. I don't want to. Everything drags others in a train. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-06 07:08 am UTC (link)
	What do you mean? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

crossboundaries
2011-12-06 07:12 am UTC (link)

[quiet for a minute, then mimes pulling something, like dragging in a rope knot by knot]

What if I live? [tug] Then, how will I make up for my existence? [tug] For continuing to cause harm in the name of erasing myself, then not doing it? [tug] How can I live in a world I hate? [tug] What will aging mean for my flawed body? [tug] Will I need a doctor? [tug] What will they need to know about me? [tug] If I'm living with Miharu, what will he need to know? I died grateful that he never asked me about the things it hurts to touch. [tug] But that can't continue, if the future is indefinite...

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zeromemories
2011-12-06 07:15 am UTC (link)

. . . mm, that's true. But at the same time—it's not fair, to be committed to a path you're not sure you want any more, just because you've come so far along it. I understand the feeling of continuing to spill blood, so that the blood spilled so far hasn't been in vain; I know how hard it is, almost impossible, to try to stop, to turn around on that road. To change your mind for selfish reasons—right?

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	crossboundaries 2011-12-06 07:20 am UTC (link)
	[nods] I climbed a mountain of corpses to get here... You can't... come down from that. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-06 07:32 am UTC (link)
	I did the same. And I did—kill myself, at the end. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-06 07:40 am UTC (link)
	... [nods] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	zeromemories 2011-12-06 07:41 am UTC (link)
	I am—very . . . grateful. To have a second chance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	crossboundaries 2011-12-06 07:43 am UTC (link)
	I am too... but... that mountain is still under my feet. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)