[quiet for a minute, then mimes pulling something, like dragging in a rope knot by knot]
What if I live? [tug] Then, how will I make up for my existence? [tug] For continuing to cause harm in the name of erasing myself, then not doing it? [tug] How can I live in a world I hate? [tug] What will aging mean for my flawed body? [tug] Will I need a doctor? [tug] What will they need to know about me? [tug] If I'm living with Miharu, what will he need to know? I died grateful that he never asked me about the things it hurts to touch. [tug] But that can't continue, if the future is indefinite...