[Parrot dies quickly, falling to the ground with a smile and feeling content in his last moments....
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But suddenly there's a burst of PAIN--it's the feeling of a revival!
And some part of you is furious. You were dead! Peacefully and wonderfully dead, just as it should be! And you're reviving and this is not what you wanted at all!
Maybe...maybe you could kill yourself again. Make it right. It'd be so easy....
The other part of you. Well. That part is still yourself that should know better.
But the impulse and that WANT and NEED is so strong right now when you're at your weakest.
Your body is so tired though and someone is holding both your hands, you can't do what you need to.]