Re: [AFTERMATH]
But that doesn't mean you have to make it worse than it is. Oh, I have to change a couple years earlier. It's not like I'm not an inherently weird and nearly unique being, I'm pretty sure Vlad and Danny are the only other halfas in existence and they aren't clones, which does make a difference because that means I'm the only one born this way. Freaky is part of my life.
Normal growth was never really an option. So if I'm fine with freaky meanings of growth that I make sure happen, then that's what it should be. Not a part of myself is dying or whatever. Heck, for all I know, when I actually have a stable ghost form, that might be what happens anyway. High levels of ecto in an area does significantly raise the chances of a ghost forming upon death and having all the ecto already attached to my consciousness might already do it. I'm just guaranteeing it to be safe. Which makes it a natural progression for a freak of nature.
...and I know you didn't have a choice. I'm not denying that. It was my decision.
All the more reason you should stop acting like you're the person who had to be the horrible person, so stop making up reasons for why you should be.