That. . .actually does sound a bit like her. I'm not aware of her asking for anyone's forgiveness, however.
Part of the reason she became our patron was in fact because she desired--she needed--companionship, love, and friendship. Even now, with her plotting to escape, she keeps asking us to come with her.
And when I've talked to her, she says she always feels incomplete. We tried giving her a name, and it didn't work. She tried looking for her eyes, but gave up when she thought she could just accumulate enough power to leave. As for her sadism. . .yeah, she does enjoy it, and we have tried to coax her out of it. I'm not sure why she can't break out of it--I always thought it was just because her dominant side was so much stronger than the other.