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Razzy/Danielle 'Dani' Phantom (copyofaphantom) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-10-28 18:47:00

Entry tags:

!days 280-289, chrono, claude c. kenni, danielle 'dani' phantom, edward elric, johnny rayflo, nakayama yayoi

Who: Razzy, Lizardking, some dolphins
Where: Lizardking
When: Day 285, morning
What: Heart runs.

[So after a balanced and drugged breakfast, tiny is asleep in Lacerta.]

((OOC: [Pre-Heart Things | Heart Entrance | Through the Portal. | Continuation | Clean Up | Post Heart]
Heart runners go to #halfaheart. Game start at about 7:45 to 8:00
ANY OTHER LIZARDKINGS CAN COME IN AT ANYTIME. Just ping me and we can get you in there in a logical way for your character to go into obviously dangerous heart on their own.))

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 09:39 am UTC (link)
	[holy shit] [holy shit] [Pulling out of that dive sharply] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 09:42 am UTC (link)
	[And shelfy is gonna be collapsing to the ground right now, kind of...panting and looking a bit O__O] [HOLY SHIT IS RIGHT.] .... [And then she'll grab some of those books that fell and just....chuck them into the pit too. Oh, hey, some books are appearing on shelves again.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 09:44 am UTC (link)
	[While you do that I'm going to land and cough up some blood because I'm freezing and am now missing some organs, apparently.] [And then peer over the edge of that pit again, holy shittttt not as planned] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 09:47 am UTC (link)
	.... [And she's gonna come over there. Grab your shoulders. AND DRAG YOU AWAY FROM PIT.] I don't like you near dark abysses. I...she...Razzy will know if someone dies in here, and let's not undo some of what all that just...just DID. [She's kind of thrown off balance in a big way, but doesn't seem...angry? Or anything, really. Just...buwah.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 09:49 am UTC (link)
	[COMPLETELY SHELL-SHOCKED and also frozen, thus easy to drag] W...what did that just do? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 09:51 am UTC (link)
	...hard to say. It's...Poltergeist was trying to get control and Phantom was trying to prevent that and....and she told me to SHOOT. She somehow got...the will to do it suddenly and then human part was saying do it too, I could hear her again... So...I did. [Ide-I FOLLOWED WHAT I WAS TOLD MAN.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 09:54 am UTC (link)
	But...she... [IDE EITHER, MAN. Already constructing temples to house the guilt, eyes still fixed on the abyss.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 09:57 am UTC (link)

I....

The human part...the one I could hear...she can hide things. She can pretend everything is fine even when it's not. And the maintainers, they're the ones to examine...and her room.

Her room was just everything I couldn't shelf and couldn't throw away. Everything the human couldn't hide behind a smile. Everything we pretend just doesn't exist and keep locked away for as long as we can...

I....I could never bring her here. I'm not that strong. It's too much to deal with and...

And...

And with her there, so close, it was...it was a moment we COULD, at least....partially...

And now it's gone.

[And she kind of plops near you, just kind of staring at the abyss before she just....kind of laughs. Because what else can she do, this is all kind of ridiculous.]

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 10:34 am UTC (link)
	[Why are you laughing when this is clearly the worst thing \o/] ...I just wanted to keep her distracted while they got the human half out safely. Not-... (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 10:41 am UTC (link)

[Ninja posting, shhhh]

[And she stifles her laughter, but is still grinning.] You know...I watch the shelves. If things are on the shelves, she's dealing. If things are falling off, she's not. And things can only be thrown into the pit when it's their time and not a moment sooner. But the shelves are only so big and it depends on how stable and healthy she is.

[Points up, grinning widely.] Notice anything? [A few of the previously empty shelves have a book or two on them, all everyday, normal worries her slowly going insane mind let go. Other shelves would surely get books again when the problems are relevant. However, the shelves themselves had changed. All of them have the bar add on Ed had made before, and most readily apparent on the one shelf that had been overflowing was the shelves were LONGER. By a great deal.]

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 05:34 pm UTC (link)
	[??? Dragging his eyes off the pit to stare at the shelves] All that...just because she's gone? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 07:10 pm UTC (link)

I doubt this will be all that it does.

[Looking back up at the shelves.] If Razzy is dealing, the shelf is stable and fine. After a time, I can usually throw away at least most of the books. If things get a bit bad and a book or two start falling off, depending how well I can keep the juggling act, the lying one can pretend it's all right on the outside and hopefully something will happen where I can get the other books away.

Sometimes even she can't and I can't keep juggling and then people notice something is wrong. If something happens, helps her get over it fast, then I can do that. Juggle and fail, but eventually I might throw away the extra books.

But....if she doesn't. If she can't get over it, if help isn't working, if the books just stay and I can't keep up....then eventually the books will be taken from my room...and put in Poltergeist's room. But the thing is, the books aren't GONE. They're shoved away and ignored, but they're still there, just under the surface, tied up by our will to keep moving forward despite that weight. Because it's still there and it's straining the entire system. Not as badly as my constantly falling books, no, that's when everything is horrible all the time, but it makes reaching the point of break down that much closer because everything gets weaker. Smaller shelves, I'm sure there's other affects elsewhere...

But with so much suddenly 'dealt with,' it's going to have a huge affect.

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 07:31 pm UTC (link)
	[You're really not making me feel better, Shelfy :X ogod] That's not...what kind of effect-? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 07:37 pm UTC (link)

I can't say exactly. I'm basically coping, I'm not everything. All I know is what it's done is made her ability to cope a whole lot better. And I don't have the niggling voice in the back of my head to focus only on issues of family being hurt and protected to the point I can't maintain the shelf well at all. Still there, because that's still a thing, but not to the point where I don't throw any of the books away even though I should.

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 07:49 pm UTC (link)
	[How has murdering parts of you made you better at coping!! Also I'm still missing a lung and some other things so I'm going to skip asking questions for a moment in favor of attempting to breathe] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 08:21 pm UTC (link)

[Is pretty zen right now. My shelves are staaaaable and my core thing is feeling pretty awesome right now.]

... [Studies him for a few moments before she sighs.] Poltergeist wasn't 'An Issue.' Not some big thing she just ignores. She was 'The Issues.' Everything she can't deal with, everything that could very well drive her totally insane, it's all bad.

You saw how she was acting, right? She couldn't even see what she was doing anymore, she would hurt her family because she wouldn't see she was on her own. The only reason Razzy didn't start chaining people up is because Phantom got to the outer area and could slow down the bleed through.

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 08:28 pm UTC (link)
	That doesn't mean we had to... [Can we really say "kill her"? What even was that?] [Coughing fit instead of finishing that thought 8\|;;] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 08:30 pm UTC (link)
	[Rubs your back. Just patiently waiting for you to heal, yep.] Because Issues festering is such a good thing. ....besides, I'm not sure how 'gone' her gone is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 08:33 pm UTC (link)
	[Well I think I have two lungs again...maybe....idk hard to say. Slumping and wheezing.] ...I need to talk to the True Heart. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 08:37 pm UTC (link)
	[Blinks and looks towards the door.] ...there's still some shifting going on, but the floors should be separated again. [So something is kind of happening outside the room. =D] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 08:48 pm UTC (link)
	[All this sitting around has probably frozen me again, endless cycle of suckkkk. Forcefully cracking the ice and heading in a thattaway direction, then.] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions copyofaphantom 2011-10-30 08:50 pm UTC (link)
	[Actually, the ice seems to be slowing down significantly. Just kind of frosting up again.] Go to the third floor! Down the ladder, that's where she is. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 08:51 pm UTC (link)
	[That is indeed a significant improvement. Following those directions at a hurried-but-still-kind-of-muted pace /o/] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: Tide and Safe Decisions

copyofaphantom
2011-10-30 09:02 pm UTC (link)

[Once you step out, things have indeed changed.]

[The room is still circular and the paneling and the moosheads are still there, but where before it was all one level, it's now changed back to three. There is a handrail along the walkway of this floor as the center is open, with lower level being visible. There is a ladder attached to the handrail going down to the floor below, and another ladder beside it going up to the first floor. You are currently on the second.]

[There are four doors here, the green you just came from, a blue, one with symbols, and the broken red door.]

[On the floor below, you can still see the cold fog rolling around the ground. The ice mirrors from before are also completely broken, with some parts having even fallen to the ground, though some fragments are still clinging a bit stubbornly.]

[Finally, from above, there is sunlight shining down, as if there's a skylight to the roof.]

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	Re: Tide and Safe Decisions overclocking 2011-10-30 09:08 pm UTC (link)
	[Pausing ever-so-briefly to examine the new surroundings] ...the sky is back... [Spotting the ladder and deciding that takes too long when freaking out. Just going to make a flying-beeline for floor three] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)