Yes... that's what I've been trying to say... Um... [ducks his head] I think it's very easy for me to make myself -- insecure? Frightened? I don't know, exactly. Sometimes, situations open up under my feet and I don't know how to find my footing. When -- I want something, but I'm afraid at the same time? And I think I ignore ... how situations... really are, when I get like that. That's the fear, I think, the trying to ignore it?