Re: Memory crunch time
But you didn't know that. You didn't know what would happen.
You wanted to return home. Fighting to have the happy life you want, trying to survive to achieve that, that isn't wrong.
I won't say what happened to the others was right, because it wasn't, but the bulk of the blame is not on you. It's on those in charge, who gave the order. They're the ones who made the decision and take the responsibility.
There's nothing wrong in you having hope that you could make it back.