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Tweak says, "Inconceivable!"

Hawk (Shinonome Mikazuki) (crowingabout) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2011-08-02 20:59:00

Entry tags:

!days 250-259, adachi emiri, apollo justice, aragaki shinjiro, ashikawa mitsuru, claude c. kenni, edward elric, erik lehnsherr, fay d. flourite, folken fanel, hattori heiji, jace beleren, kanou taisuke, kuroba kaito, kurosaki tasuku, lelouch lamperouge, lenalee lee, minami ikki, nakayama yayoi, nishi jouichirou, rabi, rolo lamperouge, selendis, shinonome hangetsu, shinonome kon, shinonome mikazuki, sumeragi kururu, syaoran, takizawa yuta, tazendra, tifa lockhart, uchiha itachi, wanijima akito, yoi-te, yuffie kisaragi, {charles j. krishund}, {mikura kazuma}, {{{akatsuki chika}}}

Who: Everyone!
Where: Anywhere
When: Day 259, all morning
What: Fallouts + damage assessments

[it's a new day in Sabra! People are emerging from their dorms (or not-their dorms) and checking on each other and what happened last night]

((put your location in the title if you want it to be in a specific location!))

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	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:24 am UTC (link)
	Not those people. . . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:26 am UTC (link)
	All I really know about Cygnus is that one of my teammates likes one of them, it's true. But Monoceros is Monoceros. Or should I not inquire about Sunny and his team, Brother? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:29 am UTC (link)
	[icy] You can do what you like. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:29 am UTC (link)
	[coolly] Brother's misunderstanding. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:33 am UTC (link)
	[. . . a slight pause at that tone] . . . Taking away implications other than those you intended to convey is not misunderstanding. It's nuance. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really]

brother_con
2011-08-03 08:36 am UTC (link)

Reading too much into it is misunderstanding.

Acknowledgement isn't condemnation, Brother. There will be times where you'll have to make a choice, and sometimes that will be Pavo, and sometimes it won't. In this case, Pavo would come first. I thought, actually, you'd rather I acknowledge that. But perhaps not?

Really, if I don't acknowledge this, we'll never get anywhere.

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	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:37 am UTC (link)
	. . . [expression almost . . . confused, brows creasing] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:39 am UTC (link)
	[walks closer to him again] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:40 am UTC (link)
	[narrows his eyes but doesn't step away] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:42 am UTC (link)
	I love you, Brother. Don't leave just after we've seen each other again, unless you really do have urgent business. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:44 am UTC (link)
	. . . I do have business. But I . . . can stay a few moments. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:46 am UTC (link)
	All right. I'm glad. [nods towards the dorm] Would you like to come up, or did you prefer to stay out here-? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:47 am UTC (link)
	. . . out here, please. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:48 am UTC (link)
	All right. Let's take a walk? [reaching for his hand] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:50 am UTC (link)
	[not smiling, still, but reaches out to slowly wind his hand with Rolo's] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really]

brother_con
2011-08-03 02:43 pm UTC (link)

[threads his fingers with Lelouch's and starts to walk with him, squeezing his hand briefly]

... You really have to remember... It was only around forty days ago that I started to realize something was going on between you and Sunny... neither of you had told me, so I had to realize on my own. It was around the same time other big things were going on between us, as well. I don't mean that to make you feel bad; it's just a fact. That just over a month ago I realized somebody came and Brother fell in love under my nose, without my awareness. I've been trying to find my equilibrium since then, really, struggling against some momentous decisions and changes.

I guess you could say that I realized last night that the battle I've been attempting to wage is a losing battle. I can't fight this anymore. I'm no competition for Sunny. So, I won't try to be competition for Sunny anymore. Brother can love me, and I him, in a separate way, and prioritize Sunny as he must. That's that.

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	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 04:48 pm UTC (link)
	. . . [just kind of silent, stunned] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really]

brother_con
2011-08-03 04:55 pm UTC (link)

[looks down at the ground, watching his feet as they walk]

I can't... compete. But you told me at the time that ... I should believe in you, and that you'd love me even if you loved other people, and that you'd hold onto being my brother, and that you won't leave me behind. So... I decided... I should hold onto that, even if I can't compete. I love you, Brother. I'm... I'll do my best, just like this, for us.

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	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	. . . [tightening his grip on Rolo's hand] But— (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 06:11 pm UTC (link)
	[tightens too, holding on as hard as Lelouch is] But...? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 06:13 pm UTC (link)
	. . . Will that . . . make you happy? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really]

brother_con
2011-08-03 06:27 pm UTC (link)

Being with Brother will make me happy. Loving Brother. Being loved by him. Staying at his side for as long as I live. Fighting at your side, fighting for the things we both care for. That will make me happy.

[lifts Lelouch's clasped hand to his mouth and kisses it lightly, unless Lelouch resists]

Someone told me that I fell in love with the first person who was kind to me. I don't agree with that, because "kind" doesn't cover what Brother is and was to me. But even if it was true, even if that's something you've doubted too, it's love. I love you. I love you completely. In every way I can. Tightly and hard. My feelings haven't changed at all. If Brother were to look only at me I would be ecstatic.

But that isn't going to happen, so I will love you from wherever I can love you from. Ah, it's not easy for me? Accepting an impossibility. But how can we have a future together if I don't? If always, always, Sunny is something in my path, for you to impact before you impact me?

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	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:11 pm UTC (link)
	[hand still wrapped tightly around Rolo's knuckles white] . . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] brother_con 2011-08-03 08:13 pm UTC (link)
	My feelings... haven't changed. Is that okay? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: [Lyvus --> anywhere really] zeromemories 2011-08-03 08:19 pm UTC (link)
	I'm—I'm sorry . . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)