Re: [Everywhere]
No... you're right. When I think about it, you're right. He can keep it up as long as he wants, can't he? He has other outlets, he has a lover, he has a solid relationship to fall back on. I don't have those... resources... so in the end, it's unbalanced as long as I keep it at his level.
I'm just... frightened, of pushing him away by getting too hot or too cold, because... he's already doing these things that move away from me -- like... becoming a vampire, obviously, he didn't do that to separate himself from me... but it's one more step away from me. It didn't have anything to do with me, but that's just it. He won't consider me. His life won't... have anything to do with me. It's one more place I can't touch. If things are that fragile already, then if I make him pull away too far... I feel like I'll lose my only family. But ... you're right, that he can do this indefinitely... and I can't. Trying is only losing.