Re: [Endgame]
I chose him because he was the only person I could trust to know my feelings at the time. To know that I didn't do it because I hated him or anybody but because it isn't okay to do this to anybody. I knew it wasn't okay to do. So I had to pick someone I had faith in. Who would also know that I wasn't doing it because I thought it would be okay with him or anyone. Because I have faith in him. That never made what happened okay! It's not okay. Killing anybody in a game is never okay. Maiming anyone in a game is never okay. I hate it. I hate the blood. I hate that bones and blood and flesh is building up around me as I play these games, as I strive for my wish, and I hate that it's normal and that everyone does it.
But it won't happen again. I'm not an idealist anymore. I'll target conveniently as necessarily instead of riskily for an ideal. So you don't need to worry about him. I'm not going to target him again. I promise. Just don't worry about him.