This . . . This is that fucking weakness I keep telling you about.
What are you more afraid of? Of getting your precious fucking hands dirty? Or of dragging your team down into the punishments you'll earn by refusing to go along? Of being nothing better than miserable, dead weight to them in these games?
Whatever you do is going to hurt people. There's no fucking way around it. Either act like the fucking leader Fang and Sparta keep saying you are, or go ahead and do nothing but feel really shitty any time there's a game that your team has to pull your sorry ass through.