. . . I wouldn't just throw myself away. I'm no good to anyone like that.
There's no safe way to go against the Judges, you know that.
I've played the role of the villain all this time, and I'm able to do it because everyone here is here for a reason. To play, and struggle, and fight, and win. And I thought I could help that happen, support you through it. And I've watched members of Vongola and Ophiuchus break, and be hated, and disappear one by one in the process.
But now the world is shaking, you're in a contract with a Judge who could devour you forever, everyone's in danger from a poison that can erase everything about them, and you're hit with it. And you're rebelling.