Yeah, well, you're not me. And despite what you may think, I'm just fine with you hating me. Whatever. I can't do anything to change it or make it better.
For the record, just because I can say I feel sick and hate that I did something like that doesn't mean I'm not owning up to it. I did it. I went with the choice and I carried out the deed. I already admitted to it. I'm not sure what you're expecting here, though. What? I'm supposed to not feel bad? Supposed to feel justified for some misgiven reason? Like every other team in this place does? Newsflash: I don't. Sorry if that makes me a martyr, but it's not like I'm offering to chop my own fingers off to appease anyone either.