I think I'm just scared, not brave. I don't ... want to hurt anyone. I don't want that responsibility. Even if I say "I'll only use my sword to protect my team and nothing more," I'll still be responsible for hurting someone else who is also only following what they believe is right. And then more grudges will be born ...
But at the same time, I don't want to be a burden on my team, either. I don't want them to get hurt because they feel like they have to protect me ... isn't that just selfish? It's not like I can have it both ways.