[he freezes, and there's that shudder and posture shift you've seen before from Emil, but that look, it's vicious and hurt, and maybe . . . lost? Marta? Marta!? I couldn't save her, nononono, I'LL KILL HIM, I'LL KILL HIM this is why it should be me not him, he can't do anything to save her, damn it, damn it, damn it