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Tweak says, "Bleh."

Allen Walker (Star) (pierrotdetous) wrote in sabra_la_tau,
@ 2010-07-05 00:51:00

Entry tags:

!days 140-149, allen walker, rabi

Who: Allen and Red
Where: Salt run, startin' at Cepheus
When: Day 145 afternoon, after Hydra/Canis peacetalks
What: guuuhhh

[knock knock knock]

Red, it's Allen.

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	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:25 am UTC (link)
	Lepus took our price for us. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:26 am UTC (link)
	I heard about that. . . Van stopped by Lacerta, actually. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:29 am UTC (link)
	. . .Van did? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:30 am UTC (link)
	Aah. I was really surprised. But he gave us a lot of aloe, for Razzy. He said it was from Monoceros, but. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:34 am UTC (link)
	Heh. He's a nice guy. Just kinda shy. And he had a bad start, with how his team wouldn't let him inside to start and all. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:36 am UTC (link)
	Aah. . . I met him once, he's just so quiet. . . . . . Zack's getting the same treatment, they lost his memories and he's on the floor. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:38 am UTC (link)
	...oh Lepus. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:46 am UTC (link)
	Aah, well... things should smooth over. . . Ugh, I'm getting sidetracked. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:46 am UTC (link)
	You are. How is Allen Walker? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:49 am UTC (link)
	. . .The person with the actual order was Slick. [holds out his Innocence arm to show him -- there are a few thin cracks spidering about] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:50 am UTC (link)
	Did he really have to go that far?! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 05:52 am UTC (link)
	. . . He's lost it, Red. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 05:52 am UTC (link)
	.....................................can he get it back? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 06:10 am UTC (link)
	. . . [shakes his head] He's done. . . he's sick of fighting. He was overpowering me and he looked happier than he's been in weeks. He won't go back to fighting it again. He'll still betray the Earl. But. . . until his Noah is removed. . . Slick can't hold back anymore. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 06:11 am UTC (link)
	I don't like can't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 06:13 am UTC (link)
	He can't. He won't. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 06:13 am UTC (link)
	Can't is inevitable. Won't is different. [...hair ruffles] But whatever the case, I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

pierrotdetous
2010-07-05 06:24 am UTC (link)

. . . It's the same thing now. After that long, with that pressure. When he found me dead he threatened to hurt people I cared about if it meant I'd stop sacrificing myself. Then this, with breaking the rules, he said fine, I could die again and again and almost went all-out.

I felt like I was gonna die every time he hit me... I think it's because I'm a Parasite-type.

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	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 06:28 am UTC (link)
	[makes a disgruntled noise at 'its the same thing' but says nothing else] (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 06:32 am UTC (link)
	. . .You were in there with me. Was I being stupid? To still believe he could. . . even after we both knew where it was going. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 06:35 am UTC (link)
	He's the one who gave up, not you. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 06:36 am UTC (link)
	. . . (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

sillyrabitricks
2010-07-05 06:43 am UTC (link)

You're gonna blame yourself for believing in someone? That's just sad.

Didn't it seem then to you he was trying hard? I don't know Slick well enough to say anything, he barely talks to me. But you know him. If you truly believed in him, you believed in him.

Misplaced or not, you gave him your belief to help him.

Can't and won't are never the same thing. But if it was inevitable, then there's nothing you can do about it now. And all the I was stupiding in the world won't change what is now, Allen Walker.

What you have to do is face what is now however you can manage with the feelings you have.

I don't know Slick well enough to feel for him. But I do know you. So stop beating yourself up, Allen.

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	sillyrabitricks 2010-07-05 06:43 am UTC (link)
	Especially when everyone else is doing it for you! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	pierrotdetous 2010-07-05 06:46 am UTC (link)
	OW-!! (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)