All of us care for you. And you feel this way now. And you stopped when I begged you, even fully enraged. And you cried!
Guilt and regret won't change what's done. You have a side, and a side can be merciless. That's how it is here. But it matters that you feel the burden of that.
And you were forcibly manipulated. That's also how it is. Slick is only human, too. It's why he's given up.