Adam Samuels (adamsammy) wrote in rrinitiative, @ 2013-04-27 12:25:00 |
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Entry tags: | adam, day fifteen |
And the ground falls out from under him
Characters: Adam
Setting: His room, night, just after patrols
Adam stared at the words on the screen.
He'd had to write them down, just to see them there. Like that might make them make more sense. Only they didn't.
He still had no idea what to do with it.
Kyle had thought he might be. Cal thought it was a possibility, but didn't seem to rule it out. Mazie was almost sure of it. But no one had come out as blatantly as Aaron had and just cleared the air. Odds weren't that Adam had done it and hadn't remembered, odds were Adam hadn't hurt that girl at all.
For another few long minutes he stared at the words on the screen repeating the like they were a mantra. It changed everything. Everything.
It meant everything he'd suffered had been in vain.
The pain, the fear, the complete loss of his sense of self was attributed to a lie. Just the thought of it left his stomach churning and he barely made it to the bathroom before he threw up again and again until there was nothing left but dry heaves and gags. Once he managed to stop that the tears came, sobs and gasps as he slumped against the tub, crying until he couldn't breathe.
Eventually there weren't tears left either and he slumped, exhaustion taking over enough for him to fall into something close to a fitful, but dreamless sleep on the floor of the bathroom.