I feel like I woke up in some kind of Twilight Zone episode, or maybe this is just some extended dream. I don't know what deities or entity I pissed off in my past life, but to have lost that many partners in one go feels unreal. Especially one of them was a long term partner with 2 lines I thought we both adored.
I want to hope maybe it was just real life that has kept you away instead of accepting you dropped off like that after so long.
Irs just been really meh in general and I hope it looks up soon as I really enjoy this hobby and don't want to give it up.