Re: neil d/sam a
Lou shouldn't expect it either. You have your own life now, and you're not responsible for me. IDK how to get that through to anyone, and me asking you for shit means I can't get it through to me, either, yeah?
You aren't, and you won't. I know that. [Pen.] Neil, stop blaming yourself for shit other men did, yeah? Ok, so we had problems, but we were kind of screwed from the beginning, ok? Micah, Ian, Alexander, baby, it's a fucking miracle we're both even alive. There's no rulebook for that shit, and we both did the best we could and fucked each other up in the process. You don't get to shoulder that blame. [Pen.] That shelter's better than anyplace I been since you left.
I left the fucking door I was hiding in, the one no one knew about.