Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: Queens: Evie/Wren/Luke
[Evie, in all her psychic wisdom and having all of every person and all their motivations completely figured out and being able to see the future and the past and everything in between knew that Shane was helping her because he was a decent human being who probably just felt sorry for her for a bit. But her welcome had been worn out, and even very nice and generous people had their limits. Evie was certain she had everything plenty worked out.] Yes. [She said with a nod.] It might not have been in that exact order. I think it was passive aggressive soccer mom, and then pissy and whiny, but you get the idea. And I don't care who expects what. You help people back. Whenever I've helped people I've just asked them to pay it forward, and I can't even do that properly right now. I have to do something. You don't understand, I can't just take up space. I can't be useless. I can't. I can't do that, I can't even help anyone else. But I want to so I can forget how bad things are.
[She didn't know what to say about Jack or Max, they didn't have to like her, they didn't have to talk or care. No one did. She was feeling boxed in again but not by Luke or Wren or the warm confines of the house. Just by life and misunderstandings. She felt stupid and scared. Like she didn't understand anything. The stupid voice that told her she was just that didn't help any.
She didn't mean to make them feel badly for not being there, she understood why they couldn't. She didn't mean them she didn't mean that she expected that of them.] Will said I was alone, and would always be alone, because he didn't even love me. He said he wanted to but couldn't without drugs.
[She also didn't expect a place to stay, or anything, she didn't want to take help, or need help. She was supposed to be strong that's what they both always told her. But she also knew they wanted to help. And she knew she needed it.] Maybe just help with the motel for a little bit while I save money from work? That way we won't have to stay there as long? I can save more? I promise its not an expensive one.