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Tweak says, "Mulder, it's me."

gotta be a man (iascaire) wrote in rooms,
@ 2015-03-01 09:10:00

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*journal, anonymous, aubrey rois, plot: valentine's, preston rawlings

Wallet Anon
Okay, so I feel like a thank you is definitely off the table. I don't think you helped. [...] What'd I ask for, anyway?

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	As Anon. ex_clerk820 2015-03-02 05:56 am UTC (link)
	To forget someone. I told you it wouldn't help, but you wouldn't listen. (Reply to this) (Thread)

	Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 02:13 am UTC (link)
	Wait, seriously? And it wasn't my father? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 05:04 am UTC (link)
	No, not him. You don't remember because you asked to forget. And if you didn't like it, you could make it stop. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 05:06 am UTC (link)
	Okay, I'm really sorry. I take it back. If it was someone that I wanted to forget more than my dad, then it was bad. You deserve, like, a whole lot of thank-you's. [...] Obviously it's my own fault that I'm in this situation. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 05:08 am UTC (link)
	[Oh, this is so not good.] You never mentioned your father when we were talking. Just the person you ended up wanting to forget. Why are you taking it back now, if you don't mind me asking? What is the situation you're in, Aubrey? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 05:12 am UTC (link)
	I'm definitely not taking anything back, sweetheart. If they were worse than Michael Rois, I'm not about to question it. I trust my pre-wish judgement. [...] It doesn't matter. It shouldn't, anyway. It's fine. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 05:16 am UTC (link)
	Maybe there were good memories too. With this other person. Tell me. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

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iascaire
2015-03-04 05:23 am UTC (link)

[A beat, then he realizes:] Oh, jesus. I'm just killing brain cells left and right, aren't I? Okay, I'm taking back the not-thanking you part. Because obviously there's a good reason I asked you to help me forget. But I'm not taking back the forgetting part. I trust my own judgement there. Because obviously the potential for good memories were overshadowed by the bad, if I was willing to ask you to use magic. [Scrambling, not sober. Still trying to make sure that he hasn't left any loopholes for the hotel.]

You shouldn't worry about it. You don't even know me, do you?

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	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 05:35 am UTC (link)
	If [...] you're sure. Should I tell them what you've done? I didn't know what to do, I thought... it might hurt them. So I didn't. But if it's permanent, perhaps they should know. Yes I do. We've had several conversations about this. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 05:42 am UTC (link)
	I don't think you should, Cupid. I don't want to hurt them, either. And maybe it won't. Conversations don't necessitate knowing. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 05:48 am UTC (link)
	I think anyone would be hurt to be intentionally forgotten. [Deep breath.] Alright. If you say so. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 05:52 am UTC (link)
	Then I don't want to hurt him. Even if I'm happier now. [A pause.] Do you actually want to know? I mean, you're not even comfortable being anything other than anonymous. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 06:04 am UTC (link)
	I'll [...] handle it. Don't worry. Just do what you think is best. That's my problem, not yours. I'm working on it. I want to help. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 06:07 am UTC (link)
	I don't think that it's a fair thing to put on you, sweetheart. [A beat.] If you really want to know, the reason I'm freaked out is because my best friend is trying to blackmail me into going to rehab. And she's not really the kind of person that gets why that might not be a great plan. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 06:08 am UTC (link)
	I'm the only one who can right now. It's okay. [Dismayed.] Rehab? You're still [...] having problems with that, then? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 06:13 am UTC (link)
	The only one who can what? That doesn't sound okay. [Pause.] Is that a problem?? (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 06:14 am UTC (link)
	Talk to the one you forgot. You can't do it. Rehab isn't the problem, Aubrey. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 06:17 am UTC (link)
	Don't you think that he might also be better off without my memory? I think you might be too familiar with my name. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 06:18 am UTC (link)
	I only granted your wish. I'm sorry. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-04 06:20 am UTC (link)
	[...] You sound like you might actually be a decent person. Maybe you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-04 07:26 am UTC (link)
	I'm not. I'm just taking responsibility. Believe it or not, you are a good person too. And you deserve it. You deserve rehab too, because someone cares. But only if you want it. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-06 02:53 am UTC (link)
	Maybe he's better off being ignorant. You haven't corrected me when I assumed it was a guy, which means it was, which means it was probably an ex. So there's a chance that me not being around to remind him of whatever happened might be a good thing. [Annoyed.] You don't know that I'm a good person. You only know that I'm selfish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-07 05:55 am UTC (link)
	Ignorance is never a good thing. [Anxious.] You're not selfish. You were heartbroken over someone. That's not selfish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon iascaire 2015-03-08 05:45 am UTC (link)
	Maybe not. I guess you'd have to ask him. Oh, come on. It's a little selfish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)

	Re: Aubrey/Anon ex_clerk820 2015-03-08 05:48 am UTC (link)
	Yes. ... Shit. No. To be in pain and want it to stop is not selfish. (Reply to this) (Parent) (Thread)