Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: Wren H/Evie S
Well he told me about Norman Osborn. Which I knew he was going to do anyway, the last time we talked about it he told me wanted to do that, and then be done. I supported this. Completely.
He told me he had to leave town. And that if I didn't hear from him that was why. And then I told him to take me with him. And he said no. Which was anticipated but hell, closed mouths don't get fed.
And then he told me about his life in Seattle, and what he did there, the killing and the craziness. So I asked him a question about it, and he said there was all this ugly stuff that came with him. So I told him I could handle ugly, and that sometimes I share my stories with people to help them feel more comfortable. And he told me he didn't want to tell me because I was too decent.
And then he told me that he wasn't being honest about who he was and that the person I knew was a big fat lie. And he said he shouldn't have "let" me be his friend. And so I reminded him that, no absolutely not he didn't "let" me do anything because God damn I've never heard anything so ridiculous in my life.
So then, I asked him if our friendship was a lie that just made him feel better about himself. And he said no, he liked being the person I thought he was. And then he told me he didn't want to miss someone who didn't exist. And I reminded him that I was going to miss him because he's my friend and that the only things I was judging on was the fact that he doesn't call as much as he should, that he helped me when I asked for it, and even though he doesn't do a very good job of noticing when I look nice even though I tried really hard, that he more than makes up for it by listening to me whine from time to time. Which. I'm pretty sure he didn't pay attention to either.
So I asked him if he was only being nice to me because it made him feel nice, and he said no. So I asked which part of it wasn't real. And he told me he was explaining himself badly. And so I told him to try harder.
He wasn't getting my point, I'm not going to judge someone on things that happened in the past no matter how terrible they are, if he's broken up about it, then let me help. Or let someone help. I told him that I was judging based on what I had in front of me, and what I've seen. If he wants to talk about things, we can talk.
Its not that I don't take his past seriously, its not that I don't take his struggles seriously. I take it all incredibly seriously. But I also take our friendship seriously, and I'm willing to work through the bad shit. But he is probably never coming back. So.
I just hope he's okay where ever he decides to go, but lets be real, I probably won't find out one way or another. I suspect I may be off the Christmas card list.