Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: Wren H/Evie S
That was a little harsh on my part. Maybe not against me.
But assuming things without even giving me a choice in the matter. And if I question that, or act contrary to that, I feel like I'm being told I'm wrong, or like I always say the wrong thing. If I'm supportive and understanding then I just don't understand and am only too decent. If I ask questions, or try to explain that I do understand, the idea is preposterous. Its like people want to tell me things with the hope that I'll just leave them alone to die miserable and alone. But I don't have that page of the script.
I used to think that, because of all of the ugliness I've seen and felt in my life, the fact that I could get up and still be excited about the world that it meant I could do anything. And I can't, I can't do anything at all. I used to think that meant something.
And what's even worse? I used to think if I could just make people see that there is always something better, because I'm not wrong about it, Wren. I'm not. I'm not just saying it because I think people want to hear that. I'm saying it because its true and they need to hear it. I can prove it to them. But they don't believe me. They don't trust me. And I'm afraid they're right. Because maybe I can't prove it after all.