The killing itself. Meeting him on his own terms. I keep saying that it's done, but whenever I'm really tested by circumstances that call for killing, I fail. I'm never going to be who I was before any of this started, but I could walk a different path in life. He might not have been convicted, but I had the location of the facility, and I could have given evidence that he had traveled there are overseen it personally. It might have been enough. But I didn't take that chance, because there would have been no end to it, for me. So it was selfish, even if it did help people.