Re: Quicklog: Bucky B/Sharon C
[Bucky's issues were definitely forgotten. Sure they were something he had to worry about, but he could also do that on his own time. Whatever was going on with Carter was much bigger. She was always together and calm, even when she was annoyed. He never saw her like this, but he was the last person to make a big deal of it unless she wanted it to be. He had more than a few panic attacks himself. He nodded when she said she wanted to take a walk, so he kept pace with her. Calm, quiet, waiting for her lead.
He skipped a step when she spoke, and his look was genuine surprised, mixed almost immediately with a touch of horror.] Shit, Carter, I'm sorry. I didn't know, I wouldn't have said it like that. [Of course he wouldn't. He knew exactly what Steve Rogers coming back meant to the people who loved him as desperately as they did. And he got it too, that there were complicated feelings about Steve being alive. Bucky was delighted, but also upset. It added to his frustration, it was a moving part of what was eating him alive. He saw the unspoken question.]
I don't know exactly how it happened. Danvers and Drew are from later on than us, and they weren't surprised to see Cap alive and well, that was the first clue. They were talking about missions much later, and mentioned Steve being a part of them. I put two and two together, but didn't feel like I could ask. [Bucky frowned and didn't look away from her.] So I went into one of those other worlds and picked up a comic. Which believe me is a whole different surreal experience. I couldn't actually read it, it was just too much, but I saw him. I saw both of us.