stephanie nashton does it all (forthem) wrote in rooms,
Re: eddie/steph - bathtime.
[Steph wrinkled her nose when he slapped the water, unraveling her arms to rest them on the mouth of the tub. Knees still up above the water and together as she watched him.] But it isn't you. [She sighed, rubbing her eye with her fingertip and chewing on her bottom lip.] But you get why I feel like this, right? I just want- I don't want you to be mad because I feel guilty or I hate myself for this. Okay?
[Her leg stretched out into his touch, and she looked at him sadly.] You don't want to forget about it, do you? I don't want to forget about a family we've wanted for years and years. A family we've been so excited for. But I- [A shake of her head, and she looked away, elbow propped on the porcelain and chin resting on her palm.] This hurt is so new. Every time I think about it, it feels like something is getting ripped out of my chest. I can't- I can't.
[Pressing her knuckles into her lips, she suppressed a sob. She cleared her throat.] It was so easy when I was a kid, y'know? One stupid mistake with one stupid boy, and boom, there was a baby. Now that I want one? That's when it's impossible apparently. [A sharp inhale, and she turned slightly so her cheek rested on her palm now.] I mean, I haven't been to a doctor, but I figure Mac knows better than any doctor probably would. [A pause.] Did I tell you that Mac sounded like my mom? When she told me, she had my mom's voice.