Re: Dick G/Helena W
I know you weren't. I am not trying to discount what you did do, but I need you to acknowledge what might be done better next time. Or what was wrong about the decisions. That's the only way we learn. Trust me, I am learning constantly.
I can have you safe, as safe as any of us are. And I didn't send either of you. Damian said you were already en route, we didn't have time to pull you back. I thought you'd let us all know so we could go and face this together as best we could.
[outrage] I've never said that. Never thought it. I'm sorry if you think that's what I meant - I can't even imagine a situation where something I have said would be implied that way. You never stopped being my sister.
I don't reach out because the last time I did, you told me we'd be better off with you dead. And when I get someone to that point. I know I'm doing more harm than good. I probably still am. But I wasn't going to be responsible for pushing you any further. I don't know how to handle those kinds of situations, I don't know what to do. I can try. All I know how to do is love my family the best that I can. And my best is never good enough so I try harder.
You can come to me for anything, Helena. No matter what. But when things got that bad - I knew I was making it worse. I'm not making assumptions, I'm going off of the only information I have. I'm not going to push you, or beg you (anymore than I already did) to talk to me.