jude "i am super chill all the time!!!!" murphy (sueasadsong) wrote in rooms,
Re: Dream: Jude/Alexander
[Jude was a sweet child, he enjoyed affection, he only grew up to be colder and more proper with time. It was the position he thought suited him best. But Alexander was his big brother. The one he always looked up to. He told Clementine that regardless of what happened, his feelings were never as simple as he loved one of them and the others less. He was fiercely protective of each one in his own way. For a chess master, and that's how Jude saw himself, he had a very obvious blind spot.]
I encouraged her, fed into it. I was so certain we could control every outcome. [It was pure arrogance. Jude was used to getting his way, to controlling the world around him. This was a rude awakening. He pulled out of the hug but didn't go far. Tangled in Alexander's web immediately and there was no other place he'd rather be.] It is out nature, but next time, we will know better.
[At least to be more careful. If Jude kept his presence quiet and hadn't confronted Sam directly, they might not have immediately been aware. That was his folly. Hindsight was 20-20.] I suppose it doesn't matter, does it? You're back in Vegas, and I'm in the bloody 20s. Which, to be fair, isn't as terrible as I thought at first. [If Jude had a choice between the ones he knew about, he'd likely pick Gatsby. So far he was assuming this couldn't be Alexander, not for real.]