Re: Sam A/Penny R
I tried, I wasn't up to standards.
I ain't saying you don't make sense, but the part that maybe I'm not articulating is that who I am - the person I am - is a helper. Like Cris is a fixer, I'm a helper. I want to help. And when I can't, I take it personal. When the people I love hurt, and I can't do nothing about it, I take it personal. I hurt right to my bones like I'm the one that is going through it right with them. Maybe no one wants that. And that's okay.
I ain't bitter, I'm not trying to be good for people, I'm trying to love the hell out of them. Because in my life I seen a lot of people that had no one do that for them. And I give a little bit of myself to everyone I can. Because I want the people I help, and the people I touch in my life to know that someone, somewhere has their back. But the danger in that, is that it hurts when the people you give a lot of yourself to aren't careful with it. So when I say I know my nephew knows I love him, it don't mean it feels nice to know he hates me.