Re: Vanessa I/Mina M
Peter felt so very inadequate, Vanessa. He was sickly, and he was a disappointment, and he couldn't live with that. He would rather die in an attempt to change father's view, than live with the knowledge that he was not the son father wished for. I did not have this pressure upon me. I was only meant to marry well, and even that I did not manage. Father thought us failures, both, and he thought mother a failure for not remaining beautiful. I know you love my father, but my father loved you far better than he loved any of us.
I remember holding your hand. I remember the feel of it against my fingers. I remember feeling as if I would never be so close to someone as I was to you, that never could I love someone as I loved you.