Re: Sam A/Cris M
[Pen, deep.] After Micah, I made Loren find him for me, yeah? Take me to see him. I'd been telling him off on the journals, Micah, and I still felt completely fucking powerless, however much I yelled. I thought it would help in person, yeah? If I faced him down, if I did it, then I'd feel like I had control over something. It didn't work. It was just worse somehow. Him going to jail, it didn't take the way I felt either. Papi, talking to her won't help you, and her talking to you won't either. IDK how you get over it, but I know Meredith isn't the answer.