Re: Sam A/Meredith J
BUT HE STILL WENT TO YOU. YOU YELL AND HE JUMPS, SAM. YOU SO MUCH AS MAKE A DAMNED SOUND OF PAIN AND HE IS THERE FOR YOU.
I couldn't get his attention no matter what I did, Sam. I loved him, I loved him so much it hurt, and yet his attention was always on you. There was something always going on that he had to be there for.
See? For him? You come first. Not me. His family comes somewhere after that. And in a distant third, somewhere, is me.
So I'm a bitch. I bitched about the glorious Sam and I pissed everyone off. No, I don't like you, and I can't pretend that I do. I can't keep my mouth shut, and I can't stop digging myself into this damned hole. I'm selfish, I'm self-centered, and I make everything about me. I'm not sure that I'm even capable of putting someone else's needs above my own, as evidenced by my past actions.